Welcome to Elder Mountain Dreaming, a spiritual connection to help one learn to reclaim what they have lost, sold, borrowed or stolen in this lifetime or another. Elder Mountain Dreaming is for the Dreamers, the Artists, Empaths, Healers, Spiritual Teachers, and those who value sobriety as a spiritual discipline. Phoenix the Elder shares her cooling waters in an overheated world of drama and a host of fears which hold us back from growing, maturing and finding inner peace. The daunting path of pain that many of us must face in our life each day or when pain begins to awaken, can be purified if we learn to love ourselves at deeper levels. Your promises to heal your issues is a mystery of your own journey’s making.
The dreamer’s first languages is sacred imagination in order to begin to overcome difficulty and personal illusion. We seek artistic inner revelation through holistic self-love and unveil slowly the unseen parts of the self. This requires creativity. We cannot heal anything we cannot see, we cannot heal permanently if we do not go deeper into our spiritual quest of real personal fear.
When we are finally ready to stand at the shore of the ancient mystery, it is here we begin to find the authentic self and shed the layers upon layers of fears and shadow behaviors of many lifetimes. Karma is ruled by cycles and we can work with root foundations of self if we learn patience and self respect and respecting others. Phoenix offers her writing, podcasts and specific healing articles for those who are truly dedicated to their spiritual holistic path.
Greetings and welcome to Elder Mountain Dreaming – This is a space for the Dreamers of the earth, those who must walk both worlds, the physical and the energetic, the mind-body and the emotion-soul. We hold the training for women apprentices in the ancient spiritual teachings that support her inner awarenesses to develop within the feminine consciousness and how this effects our soul, our karma, the understandings of how to heal the deep seated emotional person.
Phoenix assists others to understand and walk through, the feminine aspects, which must be freel in order to be self-supported in the fullness of our journey. A lunar semiotician and dreamer, among other things, she share thats the nature of the sensitive is healing and purifying the emotional body so these sensitive (gifted) bodies, the empathic body, soul bodies, animism bodies and the dreaming bodies can begin to experience a fluid life as personal karma is dissolved. Its a very slow journey of course, in which one must never give up on.
To walk a spiritual path underging the rites and ceremonies, disciplines and dedication to a full purification requires lifetime and for some, a few lifetimes. The real and the sacred feminine is not an easy journey, it is a calling and not for everyone because it exposes our real karma. It opens doors of consciousness to recognize and feel one’s real past and past life or lives (depending how deep in the rabbit hole you wish to travel). The shadows and the light are too powerful to manage without strict disciplines, dedication to self healing and healers, and total sobriety of everything.
We can never really directly work with our soul or our animism souls, this is a development of their expansion the more karma we dissolve. We must endure and work on ourselves, our healing, our relationships included in all three bodies (mind, body and emotional body) in order to support the soul and its purification and its true freedom. Like the artist and poet who is a sensitive soul and expresses the challenges and depth of their life, spiritual work that does the same thing requires great sacrifice.
This mystery of the ancient path we walk here at Elder Mountain, is called in ancient Slavic terms, the “River of Life” (world river that flows from the sacred mountain.) Most spiritual, esoteric, exoteric and metaphysical teachings and knowledge know the Sun teachings of mind and body as a spiritual training and practices, and these are very important too and require disciplines to be healthy. We include the sun teachings and the importance of mirrors and reflection healing work (moon teachings) as a way to begin a reflective, synchronistic, non-physical reality that effects us greatly as well.
Dreamers who dream in both waking life and the night’s dreaming realities always need healing, always need disciplines and complete sobriety to understand the mysteries of ancient spiral energy movements within and how this is mirrored in our waking, in our past and present relationships, and the important disciplines of letting go as a real practice.
No one desires to let go in general until life brings us that fated cycle of surrender or die and that usually falls under the mystery of disease and illness. To take a path without that and master the disciplined path to surrender all is very rare in this world (without sickness). Regardless, if you are going to enter beyond mind body, then you enter the great feminine and that is a deep and dangerous spiritual journey.
Dreamers, spiritual lunar people, shamanistic, empaths, HSPs etc. are very complicated soul groups on this planet and the relationship with the self is the most important, otherwise chaos in relationship or nature becomes very overwhelming and sometimes dangerous. Elder Mountain supports those on a very serious and dedicated spiritual journey, be that the Slavic (indigenous) paths or the root core of all teachings of earth that supports one’s mystery journey, mythological journey, healing journey and more.
The leadership of grandmother’s wisdom on this planet is long forgotten and ended in its cycles by the third century ce. This is what Phoenix started on her path as a dedication when young. This meant she had to throw out all teachings of Grandfather (over the last 3000 years) and committed to her quest of the unknown pre-patriarchal grandmother ways of earth, long before paganism’s beginnings (and time oriented reality). For her it was a very fearful, lonely and frightening journey, yet a majestic path equally, for her as a woman.
“The symbol in Chinese for Crisis (death and rebirth) is made up of two ideographs: The first means danger, the second, opportunity. In astrology this is the symbolism of Pluto. These are a reminder that we have control in our life until something greater occurs and we soon learn that we do not control everything about our life, regardless of how positive we are. We can choose to turn a personal crisis into an opportunity for awakening or healing, and these have no outer rewards in life which people are used to. Or we can turn it into a negative experience that feeds fear and gives fear a more powerful grip on your future.”
Shamanism is a feminine or yin quality and grew out of the dreaming cultures where grandmother ruled societies. This is not forgotten in our remembrance and our memories if we can spiritually walk through and focus with diligence and devotion to our own human issues and master them, then heal all three bodies (not study it or teach it). These ancient teachings of grandmother are the purer states (and never hallucinogenic plants) and can open doorways of karma. Mostly mystics have been the ones who have tasted and lived in the mystery, this eternity, in the underworld to shed off one’s shadows from past lives and it is far from safe.
This is the root of feminine civilizations before karma began around the 10th century bce was not as difficult as it is today. We’ve all created karma and those whose karmic doors have not crushed their soul and ripped it apart, are able to enter the real underworld, the real mystery and the forbidden city. Many only read stories of history and mythology. No one wants to go back to the ancient realm of the goddess because there is a great possibility you cannot return in wholeness.
Shamanistic natures alongside the lunar cycles can help guide us deeper into the realms of what we have always known deep inside but have not trusted, tested or believed with great strength, and many prepare for that by doing energy healing, or any other inner emotional healing. Spiritual reality includes discipline, honesty, overcoming illnesses and soul sicknesses and the development of the inner warrior to learn how to save the self alongside loving the self deeply.
These all fall into the circle of the oral traditions including lunar cycles, our nightly dreams, dreaming and dreamtime, our synchronistic day dreams and their signs from the natural world which bridge a whole language all in itself. The mind is set up to fight or flight and never allow us to go here. When Phoenix mastered Zen and the Bardo (the death rites of the last stages of healing karma), this was required to die and be shattered apart and that must be prepared because of its varying complexities, the flow of the soul astral (energy / chakra / chi) body and the natural rituals without magic. This allows the great karmic mirrors to begin to shine the mirroring effects on very personal, interpersonal and for the rarer, the collective levels to walk into the realms of the sacred feminine.
We can have many gifts to deem ourselves spiritually knowing and powerful, but deep emotional illnesses, relationship sickness, karmic sicknesses, dreaming and vision illnesses cannot be separated from that knowing and powerful. These are also huge issues for the dreamer of all ages. Unfortunately we live in cultures and spiritual cultures that promote things that are ungrounding and hurtful to empaths and dreamers (like crystals or new age information) that turn darkness into something as light, because spiritual leaders and book writer spiritual teachers ten to get too much praise and attention. Those are bad for the one gifted with true mystical experiences and that path. Things can be very confusing when one leaves or is forced to leave the path beyond mind and body.
Our feminine and masculine sides of our Soul’s karma is the root of all mental, physical and emotional sickness is a journey worth seeking. We address our emotional body and the soul responds. For those who are dreamers, sensitives, hsp, emos, seers, empaths, you know all too well the added burdens of an emotional life and that is can be very painful when you have these gifts that are misunderstood, hidden and untapped.
Learning the soul’s expressions and manifested mirrors, developing our own second sight (the observer) is not intended to reach for some box to put our findings in, but rather, to live authentically without expectation as the buddhists suggest, without self judgment and without a process of thinking or outcomes.
We are Dreamers here live the life of the spiritual disciplined ways of facing fear, understanding the whole body system, embracing the spiritual warrior, learning that common sense cuts fragmented truth apart, and seeking security and stability of the house we live in which affects our health and quality of our inner house. Our inner treasures, our inner nature, our inner dreamer, our inner karma, the kind that lasts for a lifetime can only be blocked by one’s fated life. One can only enter the realms by fate as well. For some, they one near death and they think they know the mystery. A five minute glance shows nothing except for the projections of what you actually believe while you are alive.
The grandmother’s ancient spiral journey takes a lifetime to walk, in order to understand, to unlock and to reveal all that is hidden within our own spirals of our light, shadow, evil and good in our three bodies (mind, body, emotional body). We do not control the soul, nor does the vast majority live within us (only enough for reincarnation). Most dreamers dream with the mental astral body, but true initiators of the path of prehistory must have both, the mental astral body healed in past lives, the soul’s astral body and the shamanic animism body. All we do is focus and heal our pain, our karma and our relationships and begin to heal them one moon cycle as a time and not have substitutes of denial to make it go away by playing tricks on ourselves, self sabotaging our self or any other games the mind wants to play. The mind will always do whatever it can so you never go to, see or experience the soul.
We cannot heal anything we are not aware of. Awareness then becomes the focus through the development of the soul observer while we train our mind to stop all thoughts and layers of thoughts at will. Phoenix has been helping others put their issues into a real practice to get to the core issue of what needs to heal and change in their life. Her apprentices dedicate ten years to the process she teaches and that only touches the surface layers. She has only had one apprentice in the last thirty years who has entered her second phase of teachings and that is even more difficult.
Phoenix says: “In my life and my Soul’s worldly life of dreaming, I have had past lives of different cultures, folk healings and folk teachings that came through me to find my light in the darkness, my own inner ancestral grandmother and I have learned this of everything, was the most primordial power on earth, and I could only find it within as a woman.”
In northern Russia, the old dreamer types of people were called “the sleeping or hibernating people” and they would remain asleep like bears for the whole of the winter moons after harvest. This is when we as people dreamed fully with our soul that long, and in uninterrupted states. These tribes around the earth phased out around the 10th century because the middle ages were coming when the wrath of religion were out to eradicate any tribes left like this. To reclaim that level of dreaming is a great dedication.
This work is about deep creativity, about personal strengths through struggle, and emotional weaknesses, its about the freedom to recognize the elusiveness of the soul and how it communicates to us through dreams, both its dark side and its light. Self love is about finding your own story, your own real life’s story, your past life story, your dreaming stories, your spiritual uniqueness through your changes each season. Intention, creativity and dreaming as a trinity through the cycles of each one of the thirteen moons is a very powerful ancient rite and guide that we can walk every moon cycle.
Elder Mountain is for the Dreamers, those who have an ability to “see” naturally, those who can assess it to heal it in order to flow rather than hold, and access their emotional intelligence and vision without any enhancements. Those who know truth when others are confused by it or by it spiritually is also a difficulty that dreamers encounter. We learn by walking side by side with our soul, our nature and it teaches us how to remain safe, how to read the signs, how to relearn what we have lost and how to suffer with releases and high levels of letting go.
We uphold the rites and paths that heal relationships between our emotional body’s issues, the soul bodies influenced upon us when dealing with karma, and the natural strength that is deep within that can become stronger and wiser through disciplines, spiritual sobriety and taking the self more seriously. We can help, support and for some teach the mystery of the great spiral, the upwards and downwards, inward and outwards, mirrors and obsidian mirrors and the interplay of light and shadow that make its presence known in our regular and mundane life path.
Finding inner balance and slowly and gradually increasing consciousness is not always easy, it gets more difficult the deeper we enter our internal healing. Not just through the mind or mental body, but also through the artistic, nurture, emotional and soul experiences that change our life.
We are aligned with the ancient grandmothers teachings, which long ago were the starry night within, the midnight sun of the wisdom of the grandmothers (instead of the dark goddess). This is not a channeling or mediumship teaching and we do not encourage that, we are a self enlightenment and self healing path for those who are serious about self awareness and consciousness growth. The past, before paganism and the patriarch is a very deep and dangerous path and it exists within you at layers below your conscious. It is the wisdom of your soul but she has been fragmented for millenniums and that is a journey for the few. That is indigenous – be it Slavic, Balkan or Baltic or any other world teaching of the Grandmothers.
Almost all of these teachings were removed, suppressed and those parts which did survived, were demonized by the Sun Cults (grandfathers teachings) starting in Egypt and Mesopotamia over 4,000 years ago. We are returning back to the beginning of this circle now, as one system begins to dissolve and the other system rises.
This means many changes for people and how they rely on reason and perspective, which is shifting to emotional intelligence, dreaming intelligence, lunar cycles of yearly seasonal living and the soul’s shadows appearing through what seems like chaos, but is actually just rising to the surface in everyone.
This is not easy to have to walk through or witness in the remaining of humanity in the world having to wake up. People resist such feminine awakenings because the sense of loosing masculine power is so great. The teachings here support that transition, the deeply sensitive empaths, the emotional creative waters of the Souls, the rare seers, and those who walk the path to heal and reunify and rebirth the self require direction into the path of not the Labyrinth, but the ancient Lunar Spiral medicines.
This work is not for everyone, its far to challenging and painful for most knowledge path spiritual people, except when they hit a wall that will not break down and fall apart because the teachings of letting go (full moon) has not been practiced in life as a long spiritual practice.
Sometimes our Soul is described as the energetic reality and the dreamer’s world, embodied in the physical body with the mind leading everything. That has worked but not anymore. The soul is eternal and allows reincarnation and rules karma and if these are not addressed and healed, then the soul becomes weaker and weaker until the candle eventually goes out and the incarnation becomes nothing but sickness. For those purging karma, that sickness is a requirement and learning how to set up that sacred altar and master internal soul chaos is what EMD specializes in.
There have been thousands of names for this feminine spirit in all cultures over the millenniums but not necessarily applied. Shamanism is an ancient Grandmother teaching long before pagans and Dreaming Cultures are much older than Shamanism. Our Soul’s life is like the moon, which changes and appears different through the cycles of nature’s time, the seasons and of our initiations of our human life through our season of maiden/youth, mother/adult and grandmother/grandfather cycles.
Our soul is soft and reflective of the light, our shadow soul is hard and dark that is sick. This internal light and shadow weaves our present life with the soul’s past life fragmentations that left us without wholeness, and with struggles to heal this lifetime. Invisible yet believable. Unnoticed, yet undeniable. Unseen yet felt.
We hear it, feel it, we sense it at certain times of our life, that is what is called the calling of the wild, the call of ceremony, the calling of the mystic, the calling of the seers and dreamers, wild woman or wild man who seeks unification and healing of mind, body, emotional body with the souls strength or weakness. One can get very lost in this journey if one seeks relief or answers outwards rather than inwards.
The soul only wants to be free, she wants to reclaim what she had lost in our male and female past lives, yet at the same time, she doesn’t concern herself about your mind body suffering reality in this fleshy world, for she has suffering and has experienced loss of her own soul cloud for millenniums. Without us even knowing in her allusivity and invisibility yet always connect to us through our confusion, sickness, and life initiations into death and rebirth.
Our good sides must be balanced with our shadow sides and to ignore the real shadows or to judge others for theirs only separates us more from our own shortcomings and illnesses, be that mental, emotional or physical. The soul is in constant states of transformations and through our mind/body/emo creativity and rebirth, spiritual disciplines, sobriety (of drugs, pot, plants, medications, alcohol) we can wake up from our unconscious living self. This is not easy and its the most difficult work we can do, that is called self love without the famous narcissist or power struggles attached.
These are the roots of our real issues in life and can show up in our present incarnation. The sacred go to pray, to meditate, to wander that allows changes. When we experience initiation and the mystery begins to occurs, be that a great loss, a birth that brings depression, a death that brings sorrow, or a real wakening (what some term a kundalini awakening), this is when our Soul begins to speak. Then the great journey begins.
She, our Soul can call us in the most eerie of ways, in our dream awakenings and visions, and also in distortion and waves of fears or confusion that has led us away from perception and perspective. These all drastically change our life and opens the mysteries of the self and woos us to follow the path of the great awakenings that continue to go deeper and deeper as time goes by.
Yet, even when the mystery calls, people look outward to some spirit, some ancestor, some touch of the divine rather than seeing this as just the messenger to go inward, to go deeper, to touch the ancestral self to purify and release the karmic issues we had so many lives ago. Grandmother moon is the realms of illusions that are easy to extremely difficult to navigate.
Honoring the ancient mystery of the feminine (souls), karmic souls, emotional body and creative spirit contains both our shadows and to the parts of us that retain our highest light. These are the battles we fight sometimes that get more difficult with age until we reach some peaks. When we begin to have compassion for our shadow and heal her, the releases, rebirths and letting go, begins to show us our beauty as we purify these parts of the self.
This begins the true healing journey, where the knowledge path no longer sooths the heart and soul. This deeper and more committed path is the mystery and all of nature is involved, all of our souls from present to past are involved, then the Soul’s karma begins to dissolve and our person and personal truth gets stronger within its tests from life. This is the birth, transformation, death and rebirth cycles of the energetic soul (astral body).
Natural visions and dreams at night are ruled by the feminine and this has been greatly misused in patriarchal cultures and left our souls weak (on top of pot, drugs, plants and alcohol). Those who cannot dream or vision and use plant/drugs have entered the realm of illusion in their visions and dreams, not the wisdom and visions of their soul.
We as dreamers, seers, and as empaths must suffer and sacrifice for our visions and dreaming and they can be quite frightening. Phoenix has a fated connection to this ancient remembrance and was initiated as one who embraced the entire karmic purification rites this lifetime. This is the true dreaming or dreamers path of conscious synchronicities, signs, day by day and night by night.
These fall under the pre-pagan primo’s Spiral Medicines of the primordial grandmothers of ancient times before Egyptian cultures and at its simplest forms, the true and real mirror work under the cycles of the monthly moon were our guide in the season keeper of earth and of our human souls and animism souls. We truly have no beginning and no end and this is the root of our unwavering simplicity at our root core. When we die we do not need a body and if one has never healed the non body aspects of self, then we are stuck with lifetimes of karma again.
This is a difficult to extreme challenge for the average spiritual person to accept much less understand, but it can be learned in the forms of the spiral’s chaos movements and the teaching that Phoenix has dedicated to her entire life to through her own life and then her apprentices. Eventually teaching it to specific light and dark, step by step purification.
Mystical doorways called chaos magic push both the light and the dark against you and true chaos magicians are the most sober, grounded and disciplined of all magical arts because they fall into nature’s layers and realms, not human. As a mystical shaman dreamer, Phoenix’s realms and experiences she continually goes through the last forty years, were and are always great challenges and the opposition is to master the groundedness of the mundane world. The confusion and illusions of dreaming realms which is given in such a life requires total dedication – otherwise death is the result with even one missed step.
True mystics of all the ages have done huge amounts of healing and risking towards the unknown of both personal and collective chaos, fears, darkness to come out the other side, over and over again in the layers of the spirals of how energy and dream plane energy works. The challenges of our humanness during initiation periods of our life such as illness, loss of a loved one, mythical rites, times of great expansion of consciousness, even demonic shadows, all open without us being prepared for the death and rebirth reties that take place.
Now as an elder, with a trained mind, a deep compassion, a constant working at keeping the body pure and sober, and her karma all dissolved and purified for six decades, has enabled her skills to be a living and natural magical in the forms of her living relationship to nature, people, the elements and more. She has never done magic or pagan or alchemical magic, that is not the magic she is speaking of. This is the root of her teaching steeped into the multiplex self (many past life souls and soul fragments) and the consciousness of nature.
When these two meet, you face chaos. She has experience this lifetime, and within all of us is a hidden mystery as well, but only if we are willing to pay the debts of our past (life), heal our childhood and adulthood, and make the greatest sacrifices to walk through the mundane doors first, then the appearance of the mystical ones, one moon cycle at a time.
Our artistic and altruistic inner revelations as empaths, hsp’s, dreamers, healers, seers, sensitive can all be unveiled slowly, touching the unseen parts of the self which gives enormous meaning to our life. This requires our creativity and our commitment without any outer rewards. When the world shakes, we gain inner peace and groundedness from great disciplines and dedication.
Our greatest enemy is our own fear and emotional wounds from our past, this is difficult to heal and when we touch it, we feel chaos. But this can be structured in order to walk towards our “unknown”. Phoenix teaches other’s how to make their unknown fears or frightening dreams, a disciplined walk that is stable and grounded, regardless of the challenges. Its that simple and yet very complex because of our fears.
Our self discovery, self healing and even fate as unkind as it is, allows one to face any unconscious aspect of personal fears and allow it to come forth in a grounded and clear manner. This is usually when loss or a death occurs, a divorce, a sickness, a dark mystical experience. These are difficult processes and requires mastering spiritual disciplines and practices that are both traditional, and creative with a large open mind.
For those who are spiritual warriors, one’s commitment to the self is immensely needed in this world to set as an example. To walk this mysterious world requires all of our senses and that requires knowing each of your bodies intimately. The powerful atonement of self awareness and this is the place where the ancient folk shamans and primordial shamanism lives, the folk mysticism, storytelling as a teaching (oral traditions) and ways to find our balance and maturing along with the story of earth, sometimes referred to as the divine mystery.
Slavic Peasants, Phoenix’s people, have always existed within the center between the Pagans and Religions in the peasant and folk arts, healing arts and folk shamanism. This way of living is simple, healthy and co-creative with nature in ritualistic and shamanic foundations. The Slavic, Balkan and Baltic countries are a different spirituality and its the center way or middle path mixing walking the moonpath, honoring dreaming. This is because healing occurs at the core, not the surface. Rituals of fire and water medicines (spirit and soul) are the foundation of many folk medicines.
We strive for a path of purity as a real practice, in the physical its no pot, alcohol, drugs, medications or hallucinogen plants so we can walk and live our spiritual path with groundedness, mental and emotional clarity, that helps support the growth of our inner strength. In the mind its learning to discipline the mind to be still so the second self, the inner “observer” can begin to come forth. In the emotions, especially the empaths (those who feel the sickness energy, and emotional expressions of others inside their own body) the path is the emptying out disciplines and modalities, the well spring for shifts and and changes in consciousness consciousness.
Grandmother wisdom is not lost and it resides deeply in some of us and we share, teach, set examples and walk our talk everyday, everywhere in all situations of life, family, friends and strangers. I am an elder now, taught by wise women, soul elder sisters, supportive sisters, and grandmothers my whole life. When I was growing stronger from such guidance, I began to share my life and journey with apprentices and students over the last thirty years
The eldest trees and mountains, forests, rivers and winds all remember the ancient grandmothers through the honoring of the feminine of nature, clans far older than the great Mother Cults. She guided tribes and clans with conviction and was present at every child’s birth with protection and guidance. The journey of acceptance, overcoming fear, remembrance, awakening slowly and with groundedness, spiritual common sense and purification of the soul embodied are all worth their investments.
Photo of Clouds and Vulture by Kiley E. Vejtasa and sculpture Magic of the Russian North by Galina Wiesel.