We cannot prevent the Birds of Sorrow
from flying over our head, but we can
prevent them from building a Nest
in our Hair. ~ Chinese Proverb
By Phoenix of Elder Mountain… Hello Dreamers, Artists, Magicians, Witches, Gypsies and Creatives, we now enter our Second Full Moon of Summer and continue on our “six moon” journey from Spring to Autumn Equinox. Yesterday my apprentice and I went to the ocean beaches near Crescent City, California and three symbols for the full moon surfaced. I write my monthly musings as a teaching of how I work with natures signs & symbols and how to work with the lunar cycles as a healing guide with practice. First I found a water worn stick from a pine tree with one pine cone still attached, it was like a magic wand just laying there and I was pleasantly surprised. Secondly, I found and brought home 13 large empty crab shells to paint on and make an ocean dream catcher wind chime (Cancer Moon cycles are ruled by the Crab). A few days earlier, I stumbled upon two 15th century antiquity images of an astrological chart which showed Cancer’s symbol as a “Lobster” not a Crab. This sheds new light on an old symbol of the fertility of the ocean and its relations to the moon. The third sign was a hunter who had a huge stag in the back of his truck, and all the men gathered around and just stood there for a long time.
Capricorn full moons are very earthy, as the second full moons of summer are sometimes to the point of stagnation or a slight depression, and since we seem to always exist in the two-fold reality of both protection & nourishment, sacrifice of boundaries & truth, and light & dark, the two halves of a whole in a world which solidifies the symbolism of personal security and love can be complicated for all of us. Since duality is a real thing, the solutions to our emotional issues are always found in this same duality, but duality always gives our security or love a good challenge – if we chose to use it as medicine. I call that magical medicine in a healing form, sort of like the poison that rubs up against you, its remedy grows right next to it and heals you. Then the alchemy happens making you change and eventually turn you into gold (wisdom), the highest color of spirituality, even higher than the white light.
Some philosophical, spiritual metaphysical teachings try to convince people that duality isn’t real… oh its real, very real, for the sun does set and the moon does rise because nature is real, even in her mystical forms. Our emotional nature is also real, even though its not validated very easily in the world, because it must also swim in stormy waters of illusion, delusion, denial, shock and many other forms of its entire expression. The complicated nature of our soul and emotional systems makes it hard for us to open our Pandora’s box for the sake of change in our personal life.
The term duality when seeking unity is where our mind and its beliefs must actually learn to bend, be silenced or sacrifice something of the self in order to feed our soul and nourish our emotion so we believe our feelings are real and worth supporting. Just like the hunter who had to actually experience a feeling of death with the stag in order to feed his family in the way he chooses. In other words, its not easy to be authentic in what we believe in or what we express in our personal intimacy, it leaves us vulnerable. Giving our emotional life more acknowledgement is the hunt, trusting we are the great Huntress of the Moon – for within us, is the eternal emotional and soul’s reality and the millions of years of our emological development of our souls. Certainly within this, we can help bring validation to the seemingly impossible ocean of our soul’s depth, and the frightening part each time we find courage to support our sensitivities, we never know how far down we must swim to resolve a personal issue and this is how we learn to build self trust.
Not many like to touch the soul in spiritual work, much less making it a valid spiritual teaching because it gets sticky, its painful, messy and requires real core honesty. Yes you won’t find it in any druid circle, temple or juicy circles. Why? Because only we can validate our feelings, only we can validate our mysticism and our ‘seeing’ as real and when we are ready to accept them as valid and stand up for them, then we are ready to travel the winding paths of our soul for our souls sake. Rejecting the realism of duality is nothing more than the mind saying that the soul is not valid in its untouchable yet felt existence and these statements shall come from those who closed the door to feelings and mysticism and magic long ago, and many even lifetimes ago.
The definition of Illusion: Something that is or is likely to be wrongly perceived or interpreted by the senses; a deceptive or misunderstood appearance or impression; a false idea or belief. Illusions are both real & not real at the same time, they fall into the in-between reality of mystery and the magical parts of us, and in our mundane life for example, it can also play out very powerfully when our innocence becomes shattered. This is why the fairy clan has some very dark sides to it, this is why putting all your eggs (fertility, love and moon magic) in another’s basket can and sometimes does result in the deepest feelings of loss. This is human feeling and we also have the keys to heal it rather than turn to our shadow for power.
All of these are paths of karma and through its pain, hurt and disappointments, is what emotionally frees us if we chose to do the second half of the duality work, which is the nourishment (healing) aspects of our hurt. The magical part is that all of this pain, eventually frees our real soul (astral body) if we spend half the time healing it with real healing work like therapy, or energy healing or yoga etc. Our soul holds so much personal power, but she is always the last to be freed. Having been a healer a long time, when I did a lot of readings weekly as a Seer I would hear: “I thought he loved and respected me, but I was just a fool to think it was real love.” I would counsel duality and share that it was real love, or real love while it was alive and growing, and at the same time, endings comes through fate even though we are not ready, we are never ready. These experiences can crush our innocence, for it changes what is out of balance.
In our domestic nature with its dualistic shadow and light, this silent, blurry and non-verbal brain has more power to work with difficulty. The best time to accept what is happening as ‘real’ is when we come to terms with how many times we have tried to convince our self things are not real or others telling us things are not real. To reconcile our problems with “real” we must seek the opposite of what has been done from habit. We have our feelings and we have our mundane life and these two clash all the time and are too restrained in the modern world.
Nature teaches us that duality does exist and that we can see it right before our eyes, if we are willing to look. Anything that we says doesn’t exist, means we have not looked at it closely enough or long enough to experience it. That comes in handy if your hiking and there is a bear nearby, but not in personal relationships or in mystical realities. The rule in metaphysics is, anything you focus on long enough with patience, will expand and become real and seen: wanted or unwanted. The one I feared the most, after my second of three awakening stages was: Anything you believe is truth, you will eventually have to walk through. I had reflected on the things I said I believed in up to that point and dreaded what I might have to experience… and I did.
The greatest lessons in life are the choices we make and while some of us work at uniting our personal separations, trying to separate parts of ourselves, only creates fragmented duality. Embracing “change” in real ways is like a fairytale or mythology, this fear is called the monster. In folktale and shamanic (non-plant) healing work, we realize we have at some point been the monster or the situation we are in is the monster, but with humility and groundedness, we can face the monster’s very real and deep seated fear within us.
I had a dream about three years ago and in the dream I told myself that I had made only one mistake. Back then I had thought, what could that one mistake have been? Because in reality I had made so many mistakes in my spiritual journey, there were so many difficult choices to make. I could not imagine which one it was from all the tests I have been given. I review that dream again because the memory of that dream returned to me today, but its not about “which monster” it was anymore, its how many monsters I overcame, accomplished, healed and made peace with to dissolve one the monster at a time. That is what is most important for all of us when we asses our struggles.
Because this moon cycle is about our “root” it is wise to let the little monsters flush up and be seen and dealt with it one at a time. For some of you, issues came right away on the new moon, for the other half, it begins on the full moon. For those of you who are having a pleasant moon this month, do the work anyway, because it helps us feel strong and capable when those three struggling moons of challenge comes forth. Its better to work with all the moon cycles because we make it a practice of flowing emotionally and when difficult moons can seem so crippling. Adding energy work to this helps greatly, especially if you are in a longer phase of crisis, divorce, recuperation from an accident or a loss of a family member. This is a Capricorn Full Moon at its essence. Let go~
For those of you who are new here, each month on the new moon we set “one intention” for our “internal nature” (the external world is a goal). When this internal “intention” comes to its fullness on the full moon, we then set one release intention and slowly we begin to structure a relationship to our inner world. The rewards are feeling better and working without our emotions and their stresses.
Full Moon release intention examples:
I let go of my personal victim
I release my inner bully
I release my need to be right vs happy
I let go of my toxic behavior (which one?)
I release unhealthy scattered thoughts
I let go of emotional suffering
I release projecting my pain
I let go of sadness
I release blocks to my self-nurturing
I let go of harmful intimate behaviors
I release avoiding confrontation
I let go of toxic thoughts
I release my depression
I let go of harmful attitudes
I let go of my false expectation (of what?_____)
I let go of rigidity
I release feelings of insecurity
I let go of guilt
I release my fear (which one?_____)
I let go of grief in a grounded way
I let go of my busy mind
I release stagnation
I let go of being angry
Blessings and see you at the third new moon of Summer!
Phoenix of Elder Mountain
Image sources: Photo of Magpie bird, photographer unknown; Russian artist Rubrum Lepus – Creature.