I come from a large family, and when I was 10 years old my eldest sister, who was a Tarot reader and 25 years old set a ritual for whoever wanted to participate in the esoteric teachings. I was the first in line and this led me to astrological meetings when I was 17 years old, with my second oldest sister (she was 27 years old). Every year on New Years Day our family did one I-Ching reading for the whole entire year and practiced it.
I-Ching medicines is a Tao teachings of wisdom and based on the self empowerment path through humbled spiritual initiations. If you can do the actual year long practice and work at it with awareness, you get better at understanding your own weaknesses. I did this discipline every single year and after 50 years of I-Ching, I mastered not only knowing what each hexagram means through experiencing, but also how such support can at least, for the mental body, add to the shifts of many “behavioral” issues applied through such practices.
Besides the I-Ching I also consulted the Tarot and my eldest sister also did excellent readings. Over my sixty years, the one dominant card that arose over and over again was: XVI Tower Card. It showed me in the readings during the year, how it was manifesting itself in the waking world, and the I-Ching was the principles of practices of the inner world. With the two forces of wisdom of esoteric knoweldge and wisdom over the years, two worked together, the inner self with the synchronicity worlds of the waking life of one’s outer world – I began to see my actions (Tarot) and my karma (Tao).
The Tower Card (change through destruction) was consistently supported by the esoteric wisdom which was very difficult and hard work.
Now that I have real hindsight of wisdom, 50% of all readings involved the “Tower” card over the years, regardless of their esoteric nature such as astrology, numerology, card readings, etc, they all were the same. The divination of chaos, destruction, upheaval, loss and separation. I have not had the tower card in over six years, which coincided along with my initiations as a dreamer (shaman) were completed five years ago in 2012. I have my party hat on and it is the heavenly influences of the peaceful path now and all the heavenly non-physical gems that goes with this in my unified souls.
True magic of honoring mother earth and also mastering the chaos she threw at me in the third level of my initiations have led to my own purification at extraordinary levels of pain in which the truthful saying comes: “There are worse things than dying.” When I meet those who seem so proud and egotistical of their Chaos Magick, one blow of the spirit of wind through my lips, they fall apart from both their ego, then chaos, then fear rises showing the true state of the being. This is because ego has no real power, its real but based on the energy of Illusion, and fear is a magnetic energy that always attracts chaos.
If you do the difficult and humbling work as a spiritual warrior first for decades, then you know the self, every inch of your own shadow to be detoxed and purified, it is then, you are left with purity and this does take decades and in the great traditions, it is the elder who holds such magic, beauty, truth, if they passed all their tests. Its worth the journey, but only in the end.
Art sources: First painting called Шаман – Александра Герасимова Shaman – Alexander Gerasimov; second painting of the Tower ?