Phoenix the Elder

Phoenix is a Dreamer (last level of a [non-plant] shaman), a traditional Slavic folk healer, dream walker, master teacher of dreams, teacher of birth, transformation, death, and rebirth medicines, mastering dreaming shape-shifting, lucidity, remote-viewing through both mental astral body and soul astral body, astral travel, out of bodies, death out of bodies, weather shifting, ancient huntress work, ancient chaos magic and the relationship with the consciousness of nature. Professional evolutionary / karmic astrologer, I-Ching-Qi Jing reader, dreaming medicines, Cranio and Reiki energy healer, living mysticism path, symbolist, and mythologist.

These, of course, took a lifetime with 100% discipline, sobriety, dedication and loss in order to push forth, heal from, master, and then teach a handful of gifted apprentices this lifetime. Her main work was her three karmic lives purification and the deeper she went in, the darker it became, leading to a fight or flight lifetime.

Her family’s ancestral traditions along with her fated life are the lineages of the gifts of the Mol’farka (Ukraine), and the Polish traditions of Whisperer or Sheptukha (folk healer) and Wind Whisperer (exorcist). Since her childhood, she was driven by fate, into spiritual paths and their depths out of the necessity of freedom from pain, soul-sicknesses, and nature’s challenges upon her. Through the more extreme purification processes, this developed her gifts, healed and transformed herself, returned her many animism souls, and the unfolding devotion to the purification processes of real death and rebirth paths.

Fated and bound at birth to a mystical life, she has not spent much time in the public life or world, instead, was devoted since she was 18 to her own long personal healing journey which opened up her karmic purification journey in the late 90s. She took a vow of poverty in the early 1990s, and a vow to never write a book, nor do workshops, so she would not be distracted off the path of her personal healing, karmic healing, and self-awakenings. After ten years of this, she knew it was time to take karmic dark apprentices rather than just light apprentices (because in order to manifest her destiny as an exorcist, which was extremely dangerous until she became very skilled in both waking and as a dream huntress).

The Slavic River of Life, 13 Moons, Dreaming with Intention, and mastery of the feminine, energy work, the emotional body, and its counterpart the soul, grew out of her first of three awakening experiences, in 1987 (the day of the harmonic convergence), with a full out-of-body during the waking day. She has had monthly mystical experiences since birth and focused the importance on self-healing, right relationships, the creative life as an artist, healing ceremonies, and dissolving her three karmic lives through the pain (wrathful dismemberment).

“We were a small group worldwide during the first harmonic convergence which lead many of us to change our lives completely. Many began to experience soul-sickness also, and soul-shifting, spiritually awakening, and of course personal chaos, me included.” Not everyone from that group took the devout ancient path of self-healing, self-mastery, and total sobriety for clarity of mind, body, emotional body, and self-disciplines along the journey but took the new age path instead.

She made conscious choices in her early adult life with three important choices… 1. To throw out hope and superstition in order to get down to the business of living, changing, and growing without ties to previous patriarchal taught spiritual teachings; 2. She threw out all spiritual, pagan, and religious patriarchal teachings of the grandfather in the dominance of the mind-body teachings and philosophies around those; 3. She allowed complete destruction to ravish her as she went deeper and deeper into her karma, including a vow of poverty to not be distracted by power, money or fame and to never share written content until her forty-year initiations were completed. Those completed in 2020 and she opened this website to write articles of her experiences weaved from the oral traditions into wisdom teachings (along with her lunar work-study for the general public.)

Phoenix weaved all of her experiences, creative spiritual practices, disciplines, seership, energy healing, meditation, vision quests, emotional body healing, the safe and grounded way to burn and purify karma that for anyone is painful but progressive. She devoted to understanding and returning the ancient Lunar practices of the grandmother’s wisdom of the real 13 actual Moons of nature’s seasonal year into her working path. 

In her long-enduring initiations of death, transformations and rebirths, she brought back the primordial cycles of the 13 moon medicines under the shamanic realities of healing which was one of her life’s work: The Spiral or Chaos Medicines of Transformation, Death, and Rebirth of the soul and spirit and its connection through our emotional body’s incarnation while giving the mind, less power and keeping her body as healthy as she could.

Always having taught very small sacred circles in the oral traditions in her home, she worked in service with select (quality over quantity) of students and apprentices, for three decades and now into her fourth. Dedicating her own healing journey, her collective work as a dream-walking shaman, and her personal family that had a lot of karma and destruction.

Phoenix’s incarnation was fated this lifetime, as an Aquarian to bring into real proof of both the light and dark in its form that is personal: Both Karma (astral bodies of one’s past lives), and revolutionize the boundaries of opening the non embodied reality to burn karma through any means possible. Creativity, discipline, sobriety, and letting go of patriarch ideas of healing. There is so much more that she has experienced over her lifetime.

“All knowledge paths when studied and practiced, if you stick with it long enough, will lead you to the shores of the mystery called the great ocean. This is where our choices of personal and past life fears exist spiritually with us each day. To reach this point, the journey must include healing all four bodies, and the depth will only be revealed at ten to twelve-year increments of a devout self-healing path.

Unless we are willing to let go of the shore and begin to swim into the unknown in a safe, disciplined, sober, and grounded way, there is no navigation of such realms of the mystical, paranormal and mysterious earth and her wisdom. Many will ingest or smoke plants to see forced visions, but what they do not realize is that what they experience a “projection” not the true reality.

The mystery is not free and no drug or plant will allow one access the sacredness of the unified fields of both shadow and light. Some call it the dream planes, others the multiverse, and some even call it other worlds. When we are out of the physical body experience, be it shamanic drugs, natural dreaming, out of bodies or anything that leads us into the energetic reality, we see a mirror back of what can be perceived as light, but its not, it is just a bit more depth through experiences. It’s “how” we let go of mind-body, that makes all the differences in the true reality of such realms – for there are many false ones, projected false ones and trickers. 

True mysticism comes from the realm of the soul and the soul has karma. If you are on a path and experience nothing frightening nor shadowy, then you are not touching the realm of mystery. The healing way, the true shaman way, is through our sickness and soul-sicknesses, to touch the mystery of our soul, and to dissolve our karma, one moon cycle at a time. There are no shortcuts in this journey spiritually, not the real one anyway, knowledge is limited in that respect.”

As a dream walker, time jumper and out of body shaman, remote viewer, she brought back the origins of the 13 moons of the grandmother era before paganism into the physical reality, spiritual reality, practices, and consciousness reality to heal the feminine side (soul, emotional body and spirit). Even her apprentices who worked with her for ten or more years, cannot touch many of these teachings without experience.

For Phoenix, this cost her everything this lifetime, and even this lifetime she cannot teach it all because she had to live it… as some shamans undergo the death process over the years, to go back into the true past beyond their mental astral body. She spent most of her life practicing, disciplining, growing and retreating like the phases of the 13 Moons. Dreaming is her first language because she was born without the ability to do math or comprehension of reading and after a lifetime of experiences, decided to share her stories (which were always in the oral, in-person tradition at her home), she opened this website for her few clients, students, and apprentices.

Phoenix also honors her own traditional Slavic healing gifts (peasant not pagan) and applies them to those who must walk the very weary and scary path, of the frontier within the self, and the consciousness of dreaming which reveals both the unseen and the mystery of the ancient feminine, of nature, and her own mysticism, self-mastery, and mystery.

Pagan eras were led by both men and grandfathers, but the Pre-pagan eras were led by the wisdom of the Grandmother and this wisdom is from love. Phoenix walked away from all patriarch’s knowledge when she was very young in order to begin the process of purification for her karmic extractions. “When I was growing stronger from such guidance, I began to share my life and journey with apprentices and students over the last thirty years and I have seen them grow and heal.”

The sea of awareness is huge in our journey and those into it ten years are less can be hypnotized into things like new age philosophy that does not really serve their soul. It’s fine for those who only want Knowledge-Spiritual paths or Social-Spiritual paths, but for the true initiates, spirituality is much deeper, its a mystery that requires discipline, caution, and step by step for a long time. The self as a commitment to change and experience the deaths, transformations, and rebirths without faltering. 

Now as an elder, with a trained mind, deep compassion, a constant work at keeping the body pure and sober, and her karma all dissolved and purified for six decades, has enabled her skills to be a living and natural magic in the forms of her living relationship to nature, birds, animals, the energetics of what nature shows her, people, the elements and more.

She worked with the River of Life teachings when she was young, gaining ancient wisdom as a dreamer-shaman and weather shapeshifting (shaman). She didn’t want to control the weather, her fate was to become it. As a Dreamer (last level of a shaman), Mystic, in service to nature’s magic by nature (not human magic), then attained her Slavic Folk Healing mysteries. She has worked full time since her early thirties and now in her mid-sixties, has taken the less active role as a wise-elder teacher. Only those who are sober (of everything), can work with her as a master teacher.

A master dreamer, dream teacher, master symbolist, dream walker, time jumper, mythologist, lunar-synchronist, empath-healer, energy healer, grounder of chaos, karmic soul initiator, a seer in waking and dreaming, remote viewer of both mental astral body and soul astral body, reclaimed her ancient animism souls, meditation teacher, oracle seer, and exorcist in waking and night dreaming and a few other paths in her full-time work.

Phoenix has done so many disciplines from world teachings, and began with yoga when she was 18 years old (until she was 42). During that time she studied Astrology and began giving counsel, she studied Metaphysics at an organized school, she joined many goddess circles until 1995 when she started her first women’s goddess circle, then a dreaming circle ten years later, then shamanic circles to lead journeys.

She also began to meditate, completed 8 vision quests, twenty-five years of sweat lodges, she mastered Zen and the Bardo in order to survive the wrathful dismemberment as a shaman.

She moved into the disciplines of Dreaming when her visions became weekly and the veil began to drop between night dreaming and the visions during the day. She began to astral travel around 1987, and experience out of bodies by the late 80s, and they peaked around 2012. After completing her mind-body spiritual disciplines around 2001, she began a monthly practice of going to various healers of many modalities in order to endure the suffering of her initiations. She still goes to healers til this day but not as often.

In the mid-90s, she completed her zero thought at will Zen training, and then the Mastery of the Death Bardo in the 00s. Before covid, she led large groups of shamanic mystical journeys and shamanic soul healing journeys for a few decades. She is a pure shaman who can vision (and has never used plants, drugs, alcohol, pot or hallucinogenics of any kind, because they would have diluted and destroyed her gift this lifetime and as an exorcist, destroyed her chances at her dedication to burn off through pain, three karmic lifetimes.) She has also never worked with those who do plants that enhance visioning.

She’s worked with stone massage, wildflower essence healing, Slavic water charming with flowers, Slavic Folk ceremonies, seer readings, practicioner of the I-Ching, Tao, and Qi jing practitioner. A devout study of the applications of Chinese, Arabic, and Mediterranean Mythologist and her own Slavic, Balkan and Baltic traditions of healing and mythology of the grandmothers (not paganism).

This long spiritual journey led her to the doorways of her dreaming and the dream medicines as a dream walker, time jumper, and dream huntress by profession (the ancient exorcist traditions). By 2001, she had burned off enough karma through pure pain, that her deeper purpose in spiritual terms began to manifest. She had no choice but to be fully committed to a life of self-healing, learning disciplines from many different types of spiritual disciplines worldwide, anything to heal the soul wrathful dismemberment pain and deaths.

She attained dreaming medicines, dream initiations, vision quests etc. throughout her life, mostly alone because of what real karma looks like as it rises from the ethers. That led to a life of spiritual retreat.

The purification process was through great dedication of her karma and that loss, grief, pain, and suffering lasted from 1975-2020 when all three past-life karmic lives were dissolved and completed. This made Phoenix a dream huntress in the ancient tradition, a spiritual warrior, and a natural dreamer and chose never to alter reality but allow it to bend her until she broke (free).

Her longest devotion this lifetime is the mastery of dreaming and dream walking and overcoming illusions and projections in dreams, and the longest dedication to the 13 moon’s path, living by the moon as a seasonal guide as the ancients did, doing lunar ceremonies, shamanic lunar ceremonies, the simple and complex path of the awakening of the emotional body and its connections to the soul bodies (astral bodies of the mental body, the soul bodies, and animism bodies).

She returned cautiously and step by step to the ancient ways of the shaman and dreamer grandmothers reality deep within her remembrance (when enough karmic purification was dissolved), and taught it strictly to dedicated women apprentices who were serious about their path as dreamers (quality over quantity). As she was entering midlife around 40 years old, the depth began to appear on her path, and she added dreaming to her circle and moon goddess work and entered into the fire of the shaman, leading journeys, and sharing ancient teachings of the grandmothers. 

She was meeting mystical initiations in waking and dreaming and was living a life ofa “do” or “die”, the path of the fight or flight for a grueling twenty-two-year period, the pure deaths and rebirths over and over again in cyclical time and prepared with spiritual disciplines twenty years before that. One day in hell or the underworld lasts 1000 years and its endurance is surviving death.

For the last thirteen years, she then entered the mystery of the sacredness of pre-patriarchal reality, within and all around the veils of earth, the veils of nature, animals, oceans, and birds opening at random times in certain moon cycles. Now the darkness roamed the veils in between and she had to master both dark animism attacks, shape-shifting sorcerers, and demon attacks not across the veil in dreaming but in waking life as well. 

After a long life lived committed to self-enlightenment and self-healing, Phoenix still follows this common sense and grounded ancient spiritual paths as a practice and integrated, leaving her wiser and very healthy. “Our journey to healing karmically has a window of opening, between 30 and 60 years old, but our lifetime of healing continues before that and until our final death.”

Her two specialties are Cycles (signs, synchronicity, and its pure magic) and the Cycle of the Moon coinciding with the cycles of Dreams, Dreaming and Dreamtime and its complex synchronicities in waking animism, and languages (which are her first language) including the most difficult which is the Illusion and Mirror teachings. She has mastered Chaos Magic, has dedicated her lifetime, to living by the seasonal moon cycles and lunar changes, studying and becoming prolific in her own ancient stories, both karma and light; her clients, students, and apprentices’ stories and how these relate to mythology, symbolism, synchronicities, signs and mirror work, and how to integrate them into cyclical work with the soul’s walk with our mind, body and emotional body.

Her work for herself and dedicated students are the ancient feminine moon work and mythology taking real forms, the wisdom from the ancient artists, dancers, painters, singers who told folk stories of real living mysticism. She brought this into a living circle and began to lead and facilitate women circles, goddess circles, dreaming circles, and shaman journeys to help extract their stories from their own souls and those women who joined in the circle over the years grew and matured spiritually because of it. Now as an Elder, her focus is not much hands-on healing or group soul retrieval or magical journeys anymore, but the wisdom teachings and her collective work as a dreamer. 

She is now slowly enjoying a three-year complete rest for the first time in her spiritual life. Out of Bodies, Fight or Flight Warrior, Exorcist Huntress has been hard on her physical body even with healing every month for the last four decades. She does have an online group of students if you are interested in joining her work-study. See Services (on this website).