Phoenix the Elder says that its both difficult and easy for her to share and explain her journey this lifetime because it was focused on self healing and karmic purification of three past lives. Everything she has experienced has always come back to that very core, in a personal way. Be it mystical, magical, nature’s consciousness opening up, the veils opening up before her in waking life and her night’s dreaming life.
The first thing to know about Phoenix is she has chosen from the beginning to never included channeled or mediumship work to shut down telepathy, so she mastered Zen in order to accomplish that. She found New Age people in the late 80s and early 90s too unsettling reaching for crystals and psychic and developing or talking to random spirits and or souls. She turned away from all that and all the new age and their ascended masters or having many crystals because she saw how it led people away from their core self or seeking the root self and they reached outwards for the touch of spirit. Unfortunately they lost themselves and eventually they lost parts of their own truth and soul.
Phoenix chose the opposite path, the path of self-healing not knowledge, the path of self enlightenment through difficult purifications of mind, body, emotional body and soul body. She sat in circles with many masters and embraced the common sense path that included issues to heal relationships and real things we go through as adults. Seems there were and still are so many people who are on that path of “spirit” and ascended masters and ghosts, alongside the overuses of plant/pot/drugs to enhance their spiritual abilities to see. Phoenix was a natural dreamer and chose the sobriety path, and never did any of that the last four decades.
She chose to develop her own strengths as a person, her natural spiritual gifts through purifications, through healing relationships, through spiritual disciplines like qi gong, yoga, meditation, vision quests (pure, not planets.), Slavic folk healing, native sweat lodges etc. The difficult purity practices. The common sense path and because of that, the mystery of the earth opened up.
She knew the shadow shapeshifters from the light, she knew in waking and dreaming the differences between shadow people and those who feared how dark much of the spirit world (in the middle world is), she did not confuse the differences but meditated and did more difficult spiritual disciplines to be still and not reach out but inward. Even though for all spiritual people she has witnesses or observed, so many were confused about the light but they didn’t go to real healers, use common sense and mundane principles of life and be patient in their journey to not reach for unsafe things. Forty years later Phoenix still follows these common sense rules in her spiritual path and its left her wise, healthy and never having sold her soul to anyone incarnated or disincarnated.
Her story… Phoenix began to get the soul sicknesses that shamans get around the time her two children were small when she was 26 years old. By the time she was 30, the distortions of her visioning soul, and the shamanic veils began to come to life. She chose by 33 to dedicated to her healing path, her sobriety, her disciplined and spiritual journey out of necessity for the rest of her life.
This path, forced upon her by her own soul’s fate, was a very deadly game. Either she did the mystical and healing work or she died. That was the choice all along the way. She lived a life of poverty, homelessness, sickness, soul sickness and pain that even brought her to death three times (not near death). By the time she was 33 years old, she could no longer live anything that was considered grounded or normal and made a vow to self heal until she was completed. That ended up being a long forty year consistent daily, weekly and monthly journey. A path of purification to heal and dissolve three lifetimes of karma.
Her most recent past life that held karma, was a mid 1850’s woman, who she calls a rich witch bitch which involved the birth of her own son this lifetime. The previous lifetime before that was an egotistical Roman Soldier, stationed in Egypt (from 2 ce – 40 ce) which was the major aspects of healing karma – because it involved killing people as a soldier and that costs one’s soul a lot in karma. The oldest past life once the soldier was completed after 20 years, was her the karmic life of a magician and shapeshifter who had power in Akkadia, Mesopotamian. This is why she never did magic this lifetime and although not as dark as the roman, it was full of illusions and mirrors.
Purifying real karma is a deadly game in a shamans world, one where you must not only be a master, but master fully ancient practices like the Bardo death rites, and Zen to completely slay the mind and learn to extract karma through pain. This means anyone you have hurt or killed intentionally or not – in previous lifetimes comes flowing upwards into your life, reality and three bodies. Because of the distortions and visions. This caused her loss, she lost her children to her family, her livelihood, her home, work as the path of poverty ensued. All of her karmic journey, her healing and disciplined paths were completed in 2019 and the intense chaos and mystical intense visions finally were mastered.
Professionally she walked the path as a Dreamer (last level of a shaman), mystic, traditional Slavic folk healer, astrologer, wielder and grounder of chaos magic (be it human or nature). A master dreamer, dream teacher, mythologist, lunar-synchronist, empath-healer, karmic soul initiator and exorcist. She is an artist who makes Slavic traditional folk doll talisman for those seeking healing, for their spiritual path or any other focus in life. She began her regular spiritual path with astrology when she was 17 years old (1975) when she was in high school and began to practice yoga when she turned 18 until the late 90s.
In 1987 she began to astral travel and have out of body experiences naturally. As a child she had no control over dreaming or its realities that effected her full awake consciousness in dreaming. In 1991 she soon found herself beginning to get the shaman’s sicknesses and detoxes of karmic and dreamer’s sicknesses. She had no choice but to fully committed to a life of self-healing, learning disciplines from many different type of spiritual disciplines, dreaming medicines, dream initiations, vision quests etc. Her purification process of her karma lasted from 1987-2017 and as that slowly ended she is on a three year rest. She comes from an ancestral traditional folk healing background of her Slavic peasant family and ancestors and has learned most on her own through her self healing journeys and then helping apprentices.
She moved into the river of life rituals and ceremonies for water and fire healing and its Slavic medicines. This led her to her dreaming and the dream medicines which was her purpose in spiritual terms, a person leading shamanic journeys and dreaming journeys for groups. She worked as a seer and astrologer the last four decades as a wise counsel.
Dream languages (which are her first language) includes her dedication over her lifetime to living by the seasonal moons and lunar changes, studying and becoming prolific in mythology, symbolism, syncronicities, signs and mirror work and how to integrate them into cyclical work with the soul’s walk with our mind, body and emotional body.
She delved into the ancient feminine moon work and mythology taking wisdom from the ancient artists, dancers, painters, singers who told folk stories. She brought this into a living circle and began to lead and facilitate women circles, goddess circles, dreaming circles and shaman journey circles to extract her stories from her soul and those women who joined in the circle over the years. This was the awakening and gates in the early 90s of the cycles of the moon and how they impact us more than we could ever imagine (for women, maidens and elder wise women).
Her longest devotion was the path of the 13 moons, a simple and complex path for awakening of the emotional body and soul body. She taught it strictly to dedicated women apprentices who were serious about their path as dreamers. As she was entering midlife around 38 years old, the depth began to appear on her path, and she added dreaming to her circle and moon goddess work, and entered into the fire of the shaman, leading journeys, and sharing ancient teachings of the grandmothers. With her shaman initiations of death and the mystical experiences constantly at the edges of the mystic, she finally let go and fell outside the world and entered the dreaming.
What she had found in her own healing success, she wanted to see if it worked on her apprentices, the applications and practices, sobriety and stillness mastery and it did. By the time she was in her mid forties, the more focused on the strict disciplines of purging her karma, adding vision quests and dreaming nights in nature. This was when more spiritual teachers and master teachers of every circle began to project their shadows onto her.
She then left her spiritual discipline circles for good and begin to enter the shadows surfacing of the mysteries of the night. She chose to retreat from the world and moved to Seattle in 2001 to be alone, and enter the dangerous levels, entering the second half of her shamanic initiations where and begin the twenty year journey of pure extractions of her three past lives fully through horrific spiritual pain, the mystics destruction.
She was meeting mystical initiations in waking and dreaming and was living a life of “do” or “die”, pure deaths and rebirths over and over again in cyclical time. The last thirteen years, she then entered the mystery of the sacredness of pre-patriarchal reality, within earth, nature, animals, birds, the ring of fire and water and nature began to assist her as she had passed mother earths death tests of the underworld. Now the darkness roamed the veils inbetween and she had to master both dark animism attacks, shape shifting sorcerers, and demon attacks not across the veil in dreaming but in waking life as well.
This type of life brings more sickness because demons carry not only plagues but indescribable horrific energy. She took less apprentices after 2012 and only worked with two or three and a few clients. Slowly all the work was done and the doors were all closing and by 2019 she paid her final past life karma and the door closed.
Now in her early 60s, she is in a full retreative and peaceful break for three years and enters the light, the mystery and magic as a dreamer. The simplistic magic of the heavenly influences in the awake state and her dreaming has begun in her third and final stage of life and she has reached dharma in a humble and simple life not affiliated with any temples or religions.