Phoenix the Elder says that its both difficult and easy for her to share and explain her journey this lifetime because it was focused on self healing and karmic purification of three past lives. Everything she has experienced has always come back to that very core, in a personal way. Be it mystical, magical, nature’s consciousness opening up, the veils opening up before her in waking life and her night’s dreaming life.
Phoenix chose from the beginning of her first awakening in 1987 (day of the harmonic convergence) to dedicate to healing her soul through her mind, body and emotional body. In 1987 she began to astral travel and have out of body experiences naturally. As a child she had no control over dreaming or its realities that effected her full awake consciousness in dreaming. In 1991 she soon found herself beginning to get the shaman’s sicknesses and detoxes of karmic and dreamer’s sicknesses.
She had no choice but to fully committed to a life of self-healing, learning disciplines from many different type of spiritual disciplines, dreaming medicines, dream initiations, vision quests etc. Her purification process of her karma lasted from 1987-2017 and as that slowly ended she is on a three year rest. She comes from an ancestral traditional folk healing background of her Slavic peasant family and ancestors and has learned most on her own through her self healing journeys and then helping apprentices.
She chose never include talking to disembodied souls (what people call spirits), doing telepathy or mediumship. She chose instead to master Zen in order to accomplish keeping random souls (what people call spirit out of her space). She found New Age people of the late 80s and early 90s too unsettling, not grounded, not focused on healing themselves and reaching for crystals and psychic development which did not contribute to their wholeness and wellbeing. She turned away from all that and all the new age and ascended masters or crystals because she saw how it led people away from their core self.
She chose the opposite path, the path of self-healing (not knowledge unless it was needed to confirm an experience). Her dedicated path to self enlightenment required loss, difficult purifications of mind, body, emotional body and soul body, healing complex karmic personal relationships that all needed to be worked on before the gates of the mystery began to open. When they did, she was prepared.
Phoenix is a natural dreamer and chose the sobriety path to support that, and never did anything to altar reality the last four decades. She chose the difficult path, the road to develop her own strengths and gifts as a person, her natural spiritual gifts through purifications and karmic releases, the dedication to healing relationships. She also dedicated to spiritual disciplines such as buddhism and zen practices of meditation, qi gong, yoga, vision quests with nature (pure, not plants.). She dedicated to her traditional Slavic folk healing, native sweat lodges etc.
The difficult purity practices were part of the common sense path and because of that, the mystery of the earth had opened up. Even though for all spiritual people, a unique path is required, she has witnesses or observed, so many confused by the light and feared the dark (their own struggles and personal shadow). This made her commit even more and knew with each struggle, she was on the right path to self healing, self awareness and the difficulty of self enlightenment when done by healing all personal fears.
Forty years later Phoenix still follows these common spiritual paths, and its left her wiser, healthy, grounded and simple in a good way. Her story began with getting the soul sicknesses that shamans get. By the time she was 30, the distortions of her visioning soul, the shamanic veils began, the continual intense awakenings left her at the depths of the underworld, which had come to life. This path, forced upon her by her own soul’s fate, was a very deadly game.
Professionally she walked the path as a Dreamer (last level of a shaman), mystic, traditional Slavic folk healer, astrologer, wielder and grounder of chaos magic (be it human or nature). A master dreamer, dream teacher, mythologist, lunar-synchronist, empath-healer, karmic soul initiator and exorcist. She is an artist who makes Slavic traditional folk doll talisman for those seeking healing, for their spiritual path or any other focus in life. She began her regular spiritual path with astrology when she was 17 years old (1975) when she was in high school and began to practice yoga when she turned 18 until the early 00’s.
She moved into the River of Life teachings she gained as a dreamer shaman, and begin to do rituals and ceremonies for water and fire healing both on herself and offering to apprentices and its Slavic medicines. This led her to her dreaming and the dream medicines which was her deeper purpose in spiritual terms, a person leading shamanic journeys and dreaming journeys for groups. She worked as a seer and astrologer the last four decades as a wise counsel.
Dream languages (which are her first language) includes her dedication over her lifetime to living by the seasonal moons and lunar changes, studying and becoming prolific in mythology, symbolism, syncronicities, signs and mirror work and how to integrate them into cyclical work with the soul’s walk with our mind, body and emotional body.
She delved into the ancient feminine moon work and mythology taking wisdom from the ancient artists, dancers, painters, singers who told folk stories. She brought this into a living circle and began to lead and facilitate women circles, goddess circles, dreaming circles and shaman journey circles to extract her stories from her soul and those women who joined in the circle over the years. This was the awakening and gates in the early 90s of the cycles of the moon and how they impact us more than we could ever imagine (for women, maidens and elder wise women).
Her longest devotion was the path of the 13 moons, a simple and complex path for awakening of the emotional body and soul body. She taught it strictly to dedicated women apprentices who were serious about their path as dreamers. As she was entering midlife around 38 years old, the depth began to appear on her path, and she added dreaming to her circle and moon goddess work, and entered into the fire of the shaman, leading journeys, and sharing ancient teachings of the grandmothers. With her shaman initiations of death and the mystical experiences constantly at the edges of the mystic, she finally let go and fell outside the world and entered the dreaming.
What she had found in her own healing success, she wanted to see if it worked on her apprentices, the applications and practices, sobriety and stillness mastery and it did. By the time she was in her mid forties, the more focused on the strict disciplines of purging her karma, adding vision quests and dreaming nights in nature. This was when more spiritual teachers and master teachers of every circle began to project their shadows onto her.
She then left her spiritual discipline circles for good and begin to enter the shadows surfacing of the mysteries of the night. She chose to retreat from the world and moved to Seattle in 2001 to be alone, and enter the dangerous levels, entering the second half of her shamanic initiations where and begin the twenty year journey of pure extractions of her three past lives fully through horrific spiritual pain, the mystics destruction.
She was meeting mystical initiations in waking and dreaming and was living a life of “do” or “die”, pure deaths and rebirths over and over again in cyclical time. The last thirteen years, she then entered the mystery of the sacredness of pre-patriarchal reality, within earth, nature, animals, birds, the ring of fire and water and nature began to assist her as she had passed mother earths death tests of the underworld. Now the darkness roamed the veils inbetween and she had to master both dark animism attacks, shape shifting sorcerers, and demon attacks not across the veil in dreaming but in waking life as well.
This type of life brings more sickness because demons carry not only plagues but indescribable horrific energy. She took less apprentices after 2012 and only worked with two or three and a few clients. Slowly all the work was done and the doors were all closing and by 2019 she paid her final past life karma and the door closed.
Now in her early 60s, and all karma dissolved and purified, she is in a full retreative peaceful break for three years. The simplistic magic of the heavenly influences in the awake state and her dreaming has begun in her third and final stage of her life.