First Full Moon of Summer

full moon

By Phoenix of Elder Mountain – Greeting Dreamers, Moon People, Artists, Healers and Witches, we enter the Full Moon on Saturday July 8, 2017 with a very powerful line up. Mars & Sun are conjunct, sitting opposite Moon & Pluto, giving all of us some energy and will power (mars) into the energy of transformation called death and rebirth (pluto).  These are all in a T-Square (tension) with Jupiter (expansion and opportunity). 

Capricorn moons tend to carry a somber or heaviness because of Saturn, so over the next two weeks we focus on positive detachment, keeping calm, breathing deeply and just doing your best with whatever situation began at the new moon or is arising on the full. The nodal point, point of destiny this Full Moon and the remaining two weeks is conjunct Vesta, the Fire Goddess, so fine that inner Fire along with mars and make yourself do even if you don’t want to.

You can handle whatever it is, because you have already handled many things in your life thus far. All life is asking of you is to take one more small step this moon cycle. For those who have an easy Cancer moon cycle (beginning of Summer), it should continue flowing that way. For those who have found (from keeping track in their work-study moon journal with us) Cancer moons to be challenging, review last years moon cycle and see what happened.

Liz Taylor

We have all been the fool for something or someone in our life and for those of us   who learn these lessons well, we began to learn that we are completely responsible for everything we do. People may love us, hearts may get broken, choices maybe made to let go and move forward in life, but through it all, its still all our choices. Becoming conscious of that is the first step, the second is to make the best choice you are able. These take a decade to learn, even with the most eager and hard working student of life who focuses on it everyday. Its to learn how to transform our experiences into personal accountability which is change.

The oracle: “Expectation is only a crisis for the young or the foolish.”

Whether we are aware or conscious or not, we are still accountable for our words, our actions, our visions and our intuition and because of this commitment to our spiritual journey, we must always be flexible with others and with the self, as we grow and mature. Maturity is is not a dirty word in an emotional-unaccountable world. That is what makes soul people different, we strive for emotional awareness, magic in our lives, creativity and to have a relationship to our soul. The rest of the world avoids this at all cost, and the two always seem to run into each other.

The first full moon of summer is not always difficult, but in the Cancer and Capricorn scenarios of life (summer activities and winter holiday activities), its never quit as fun as we had hoped for. Its always better to wait for Leo and Aquarius moons to have more authentic fun a month later, much less complications with family, tradition and expectation.

eldermountaindreaming.comSet your release intentions around staying grounded or have a little fun if you go on vacation, which will balance out the heat. Watch and remember your signs, totems and dreams for guidance, because this cycle isn’t all fun and games with the involvement of mars. Mars does give us the courage though, because its involved on both this new moon and full moon), its a required blessing to make your more serious “small” choices into decisions. For those who live on a whim and pure intuitively, you may want to ground even that a little more this moon cycle with Mars and Pluto directly involved.

I had my blessed Sea Eagle show up yesterday when I took a walk along the lake and it dove right into the water to get a fish about five feet away. It was pretty intriguing to watch, and six hours later, it flew over here to the pond here at Elder Mountain, flapping its wings and hovering over the pond so I could see (it was spotting some fish). But this time it hovered and then flew away. As a messenger for my full moon and the next two weeks, it was pretty clear to continue supporting my challenges emotionally on my health issue and dive in for the nourishment when I need it. At other times just hover and observe the nourishment to see if I need it. Birds represent Soul and its counterpart is the Nourishment of the Body and Soul (Fish). 

When we pay closer attention, sometimes even the difficult challenges have some optimism when our signs our clear, this is why we work so hard at our spiritual and life journey. Try to learn to cherish hearing the truth, because most of the time its the last thing on earth we ever wanted to hear but we all get to the point when we have to begin that journey. Truth is so deeply connected to our personal healing path in ‘real’ scenarios of the great mystery, that we must allow flexibility within the good, the bad and the uncomfortable.

Below I shared two examples of Capricorn-Saturn types of messengers. There is a shadow side of authority, and there is a wisdom side of authority both connected to the masculine or father figure, which in its higher experience is connected to our responsibilities and our lower, the criminal.

First one is more collective, the second one is very personal. This is how we learn about signs, then symbols which reveal eventually the more collective archetype – so we can eventually one day understand our own archetype of our fate and destiny… 

An Intimate and more personal look at this full moon:

This Astrology Chart below is set at Pacific Time for the Full Moon, Blessings and Happy Full Moon to you, your family and friends and hang in there!


Third Full Moon of Spring

full moon in sag

Monthly Moon Musings By Phoenix of Elder Mountain – Greetings dreamers, artists and moon people, we enter our final Full Moon of Spring on June 9, 2017 in the fiery sign of Sagittarius at 18 degrees. There is no doubt about it, Sag energy is the coyote troublemaker, so if you chose to cause trouble or respond to trouble in this moon cycle from here forth, be prepared for the great mirror. In fire moons, there is always a sense of risk and sometimes the risk is worth it and other times it opens up Pandora’s box. We never really know what the outcome is and that is the beauty of risk. It makes us feel alive, and that can sometimes be more than we bargained for.

This remaining moon cycle has some opposition energy of masculine and feminine, Saturn conjuncts the Moon, so we take our emotional issues a little more seriously with the nurturing mother energy. Venus is conjunct Uranus, giving erratic but electric behaviors to our sensual and independent side. Saturn restricts and Uranus wants total freedom, Moon wants to nurture and Venus wants to have a good time.  With this strong opposition, patience with instinctual spontaneity is the number one rule with the focus on our natural balance, not going too far on one side or the other. That is a lot of energy to hold still.

Having finally made it to the last stage of the Spring season, we do need this push and pull of the fire’s purification to complete it. When I teach about the 3 moons of each of the 4 seasons as a practice, its what they offer us in the ways of our personal emotional growth, the inner building trust of our intuition and the slow increases our dreaming rites and gifts because moon (magnetic energy of our feeling body) and dreaming are inseparable.

The final 3rd moon of any season, is always the “dark moon phase” and this is where all things are revealed, that were hidden, in small amounts. To reveal such depth, we practice mirror medicines, where you allow fate, to walk hand in hand with you, cautiously, while you intuitively scan your environment for the signs and synchronicity and trust that guidance through each season. Lunar work is very slow and steady, because our soul contains the immensity of our eternal lives and all that energy of our past and our past lives, is so very potent.

So what do we need to practice in the element of a fire purification full moon?

When you’re feeling anxious or worried; practice patience.
The key of patience always opens the door of happiness. ~Rumi

Deer horns with the sun goddess (Saule) Elnias su Saule raguose
The last moon of this spring season is comparable to something of great beauty and yet, inexperience at the same time. This means our inexperienced self is challenged, and that can feel troublesome, especially if we are older and think we have learned everything we need to know in life….  Not!

Аленький цветочек, Русская сказка - The Red Flower, RussianThe beauty of spring is hidden in its flowers, or the heavenly scent and the incomparable visual fertility that wonderfully surround us everyday! Yet, if we do not match nature’s vibration of such beauty on the inside, the opposing forces like fire moons, comes to pay us a visit. These are the myths of the trolls and those little monsters we are always fighting off.

This can make us struggle emotionally and that is exactly what third moons of each season do for us, a gift of struggle. In a world that hates and despises struggle (and that dark force that never lives to far from the light).  I say build an altar to your struggles, learn to accept pain as a teacher, for its the only way to heal our struggle because suffering a crisis or an issue is the only true way all humans rise above themselves. Its always for a good reason, it makes us recognize where we are truly at in life, not where we ‘think’ we are at in our soul walk.

Full moon energy contains the most magic, so focus on that one struggle by reviewing what your Gemini New Moon “intention” from two weeks ago. Really focus on what pain was at your core that surfaces these last two weeks? This will help you hit that Sagittarian bull’s eye to empty out one more drop of struggle, depression, confusion, unhappiness or anything you must work with right now and in your world.

Rose petals scattered upon your path…

Protection, guidance, grace dispensation offered a way to move right through the middle of life’s labyrinths and stay straight on. Your innate sanctity preserves you against the play of the opposites, you stay singular and straightforward. Throwing off complications and conundrums, stick with what is sweet and eternal. Most essentially, you wear the cloak of innocence at this time, a tightly fitting garment of unworldliness. And as you pass for a fortunate and blessed soul, it all turns out to be true.

We remember what we have lost in our lives and that can become conscious when we work with full moon energy of letting go, because fire, like water is a purification and it comes to heal. Letting go, as a practice is to feel lighter from a release with conscious intention. Many cry and have their release and don’t know why it surfaced, but with lunar work, we may cry or release spontaneously, but sooner or later “we become conscious of it” and what is connected to it in our path. This brings feelings of release, and that makes us feel freer from our emotional life’s power and sometime its heaviness or burden.

Scotch Heather by John Carlisle

Sagittarian Moons are about freedom to spontaneously let rise whats deeper within, below our ability to tap into the consciousness of such medicines and Full Moons are about emotional freedom. Eventually we become more consciously aware of spontaneous fire energy as we work this medicine. If you did that this month, just let something blurt out, then you are actually beginning to get into the rhythm and flow of the dark moon phase with the lightness of fiery Sag and his spontaneity.

The intent is always to nurture yourself within that, and not to beat yourself up. Instinct always demands a natural response to life, as it is presented to each of us. Especially the remainder of this moon cycle. We cannot begin Summer until we have buried and let go of spring on the last full moon!

Set your one full moon release intention:
“I let go of __________ (something from the inside).”

The season is about to change again, and before you know it, the Summer Equinox will be here and we get to start anew again in the Seasonal Moons of Summer so let the fire purify with your letting go.

june 9 2017 full moonArt Source: Scotch Heather by John Carlisle, Edward Burns Jones, Ellias Lonsdale symbols, Аленький цветочек, Русская сказка – The Red Flower, Russian.

The 3rd Full Moon of Winter

Full Moon Lunar Eclipse Musings by Phoenix of Elder Mountain – Dear Dreamers, Healers, Artists, Empaths and Moon Children… We are coming near the close of our “Three Winter Moons” which ends both the year and the last season of Mother Earth’s year, preparing us to move into Spring’s rebirth. But before it ends – we truly do have a triple lunar adventure: A full moon with a lunar eclipse and a comet all in one night! This remaining moon cycle is also, all fire and air which means not much grounding, so you will have to manage that by your own will.


Comets are collective visitors and herald a change for the entire year, not just the month, so be prepared on the Springs rebirth (equinox) to see the tone being set for the entire year! The most famous Comet was Caesar’s Comet of 44 bce, as the Comet became a powerful symbol in the political propaganda that launched the career of Caesar’s great-nephew Augustus. During the time, they tried to use it to start a new temple under Caesar as the “Temple of the Comet Star” but it ended up being the beginning of the actual downfall of Rome instead. In Shakespeare’s Julius Caesar (1599), Caesar’s wife remarks on the fateful morning of her husband’s murder: “When beggars die there are no comets seen. The heavens themselves blaze forth the death of princes.” Maybe this comet appearing on a full moon and an eclipse, has something to do with the Caesar Trump?

While others do moon work focusing on the big, the celestial, the wow, the super moons… I work year after year with the slow and steady, the quiet and gentle daily moon work. But for the first time in a very long time, I can actually say…  its an actual real super moon this moon cycle!

For those here who have worked with me with this moon work for more than three years every month, you can skip the first intro for the newbies and seasoned newbies and go to the part that starts with the Dream poem…

Coffee Moon Mug.pngA little bit about my New, Full and Dark Moon Intent Practices:

For those who are new here to my moon medicine (emotional body and the astral soul practice) that I have worked with and tested and walked through as it was developing and then worked with my apprentices to see if it worked with others (since 1998), this was “one” of my medicines brought back from my forty year initiations as a dreamer (shaman). The combination of woman’s menses cycle, the cycle of the moon and self awareness of our emotional cycles, and our nightly dream cycle, are all in-separable. Those who work with this medicine digging deeper and deeper into the self, eventually experience where their real separations exist within their mind, body and soul (karma). We all prefer to think everyone else is the problem, the destructive one, the oppressor, but when we focus on our own karma, we can actually begin to heal it and stop the shadow wheel of projection and blame and move into forgiveness and empowerment.

owl_003I have been working with lunar intention in my moon circles and goddess circles about ten years before any books came out on intention work, but those were very different than what I was doing and still is. Once I got two thirds completed, I began sharing it in my circles as a fully experiential healing and supportive path for maidens, mothers and wise women. Even men who participate in the last few years of this grandmother medicine, are finding its value.

My structured lunar path means to help one become “emotionally aware” and I used to say, if Buddhism is the complete teaching for the mind, this is the complete teachings for the soul & emotional body. A  living path of how to structure “emotional chaos” with personal karma and holistic healing. I was pretty well completed by 2008, but had to still walk the dark moon phases and its completion for 8 years, which none of my apprentices thus far, has made it this far because one must be a spiritual warrior and vulnerable the deeper shamanic shadows.

Since I chose never to write books and stay with the older oral traditions as a shaman, I kept going further into the rabbit moon hole to see how deep it went, it went all the way into the darkness of the bottom floor of the great ocean. I brought this out into a living circle in person with women, working with a woman’s moon, her menses moon cycle, my goddess and dream circles in my home in a small and intimate setting. Its a much slower process to understanding and live the integration through its practices, but the depth of this work can be practices for two decades to the core of the soul, its karma and how to remain grounded in that chaos along with holistic healing.

Newbies, Near Newbies and Seasoned Newbies:  We only set “one internal intention only about you” on the new moon… the I AM’s of the your inner world and this includes what you wish to be, desire to be or fake it till you make it be. You then observe all your personal interactions and feelings for two week of what surfaces in relation to that  “one” intention. Then we have “a release” for the full moon of your emotional life. The sacred trinity of the moon is one moon cycle: The new (beginnings), full (fullness and release) and dark (contemplation) of our emotional life’s rhythms (ebb, stillness and then flow). Goals are your relationship to your outer life and intention is your relationship to your inner life.


Because my first moon circle started in 1995 and lasted until 2014, I write monthly now until Elder Mountain begins and we return the in person work along with the expression of art added. Since I am writing about the full moon in this article, we focus on mastering the new moon in relationship to the full moon’s release.  The first four to five years or so is to master the new moon each month and that is not easy because this is very slow work. For example, only twice a year do you get the specific synchronicity and practice of a moon cycle (new and full) in the energy of an Aquarius moon cycle with a Leo full moon. In six months you get the final manifestation of it, in the Leo new moon cycle with the Aquarius full moon. That is “one” cycle completed and only 2 times in one year do you see what the actual “moon energies” for this one moon cycle carries.

I have been doing my lunar work since 1995 and I have only practiced the New Moon in Aquarius and the Full Moon in Leo, 32 times. If you practice this moon work for 8 years, you get 8 New Moon synchronicity and awareness’s for the New Moon in Aquarius and 8 releases on the Leo full moon etc.  This work is for those who are truly dedicated to relearn the slow steps to actually live by the ancient moon and live within its energy in a shamanic reality (which is the origin of time keeping, which are “cycles” of nature). All of this work is required and a real moon practice is difficult based on self awareness because those things are either very subtle or hidden from our view about our self. This also includes  synchronicity, karma, relationship aspects and natures involvement.

Solar work (all teachings of earth for the last 3,000 years) and Astrology people try to fit lunar and moon work into the Sun and Solar Knowledge box and make it fit and applicable, but that does not increase, nor bring your soul and emotional body’s awareness forth as a practice (which karma is included). We cannot heal or really be aware of anything about our life or our relationships until we become “aware” of them and that is what this practice does, and that is what life’s crisis does (if one accepts the need for great change). Life is much more harsh than self awareness working with pain on a month to month basis.

This practice slowly increases emotional (intuition) of the subtle self (bodies, senses and instincts) and the self bondage awareness required to change. We often need to know why we need to change, otherwise we see no reason for it. Consciousness and shadow healing work are the two greatest feminine teachings on the planet, and as a practice, this is a spiral medicine and you can walk as long as you wish with each single step each moon cycle.

So we are here, in the present at the third full moon of winter:

In Dream
by Anna Akhmatova
Black and enduring separation, I share equally with you. Why weep? Give me your hand, promise me you will come again. You and I are like high Mountains and we can’t move closer. Just send me word at midnight and sometime through the stars.

Leo Full Moon (22° degrees)
Friday, February 10, 2017
4:30 pm Pacific Dreamtime

How did you do with your “one new moon intention” that you set? Did you recognize a mirror manifesting in the last two weeks in your emotional situations in order to set today’s release based upon that? Those who are more seasoned in our circle lunar work, and those who have been working with me for more than six years, should be aware now, what your new moon intention brought forth “specifically” to you. Intention always brings the opposite, for example if you set your intention as: I am peaceful (when you feel like chaos), then life will throw on your path for two weeks, one or two chaos situations so you can truly experience what level your “real state of peace is in” and what is within you that is not stable.

This Full Moon starts with the Lunar Eclipse and because it is in Leo it reveals Leo’s shadow sides so they can be addressed. This is the first pair of eclipses followed by the Solar Eclipse at our next New Moon. This full moon is pretty direct this month because we have no conjunctions or oppositions of planets touching it besides the eclipse. Eclipses in their basic root form of emotional work, reflects our “pre-natal gestation” period and in pre-natal, we are not born yet, but it reflects the change of our season and we push through into the unknown, something new. Eclipses are indicators of the next natural change that we go through in the natural Season’s rebirth. Eclipses are not really personal unless you were born on the day or night of an eclipse, they are shift changes and many astrologers and moonologists try to squeeze the personal, into a collective celestial format.

The moon represents other aspects of our psyche (emotions and soul body through real  relationships), and also our fated aspects of the moons nodes, which is the human’s collective aspect. The full moon aspect is much more important personally and its energetic effects in comparison. There are two rebirths in one seasonal year, first is Spring/Summer and the second is  Autumn/Winter and the 2 pairs of eclipses (two solar and two lunar) representing the two seasonal changes. Any calendar year has a minimum of four eclipses and depending on the Sun Calendar year, it’s possible to have up to six eclipses because the lunar cycle and the Sun Solar Calendar do not fit precisely together!

Helen Musselwhite - U.K. Artist The oracle for this moon is: A Bareback Rider displays Dangerous Skills – The audacity and perseverance required to control and play with the powerful energies of the vital realm in human existence.

The aspect of the horse has always been the symbol of the vital energies. In a wild state the horse represents the magnificent, impetuous energy in all its forms. When tamed, this energy is put into service by the Rider. There are those who have dominated their natural energies well and they can perform dangerous feats and remain safe. These achievements are seen within the context of a function that is either hidden (the mystery) or socially which expresses a flair for the dramatic like the charismatic or art performance. At a third stage, the ego is in control; the great performer, serves a purpose. The performance stirs the imagination of the young consciousness to rise above the commonplace… VIRTUOSITY.

So what do you need to rise above in your life right now? What burden from the past are you tired of carrying on your shoulders in the ways of emotional burden? If your young, are their any fears or blocks to take the next steps to intimacy or feelings of needing to withdrawal from something toxic?  Generally our doors close slowly, years in fact. Its like when you experience a marriage divorce, you are actually attracted to the same type of partner until you begin to realize that its not good for you and that takes time.

This is the moon of idealism, changes, danger, risk and frustrations and the most important… endings because of the season. If we look deep into our heart and see what pattern or behavior we keep repeating which shows no change, then we focus there in a release. Many times in life people say reward good behavior with something or if you let go of something, replace it with something else better. This work doesn’t follow that reward path, it follows the disciplined path of choosing to let go of something small that is really much bigger without replacing it with something else.

This is why change is so difficult either within yourself or something you have invested in, such as a person, a problem, a confusion, an indecision. We lay the ground each full moon to let go of one small emotional issue that has arisen since the new moon, with your one release intention, with your full permission. Many times in life we fear if we take full responsibility for our feelings about something, as if we didn’t have that right to do such a thing. Well we do, we can make very difficult choices and tell ourselves we are responsible for the outcome regardless of whether its easy or difficult, whether we get flack from others or not for choosing our real emotional truth about our life.

Emotional flexibility within our senses and sensual life is equal to yoga flexibility of our physical life, one is intimate with the self and others and the other is not intimate, its an action. The more we become flexible with our emotions and stop resisting feeling the waves of uncomfortably, the more we work with our interruptions that knock us off balance. This is why we contemplate what we need to let go of one small inch at a time, each moon cycle, so it clears the way for the next new moon intention!

Letting go is emotional medicine,
we can practice it with less resistance if we remind our selves that its the other half of all teachings. Eventually when we practice it each full moon, a whole year has gone by and we get better at it, yes it may hurt, yes its not the popular love and light teaching, but it actually helps us “heal.” There are no perfect ways to work with our emotional issues, but wisdom does comes from experience that has successes. The more we are willing to be flexible with pain (new experiences to change our patterns of behavior, for the better), the more we become flexible, which means we find more peace and approach life more slowly and grounded and actually learn to listen “deeply” and that is a shock when we first learn to listen very deeply from meditation (silent meditation) practices.

I only give examples of New Moon Intentions, the Full Moon release is based on the your new moon’s intent, so you have to figure out the difficult work of the release. Remember, nature and life are listening energetically, which I call the mystery and magic (non-human magic, the only kind that is powerful) and direct, and when it listen to our intention and releases, it responds like the wind or the water in the ocean, its powerful and knocks us over sometimes! So be very careful with your release intention, because only your lack of awareness is present when it comes. Otherwise you would have seen all the subtle synchronicity that led to your release and all of them in the two weeks after the full moon. Developing awareness and soul work is an emotional practice and there are no results without hard work within awareness.

Blessings and Good Dreams on your Full Moon and set that intention for your dreams since the triple moon is here today and Happy Valentines Day!


Art: full moon watercolor: Full Moon CastleRigg Stone Circle by PA Jackson; Moon coffee cup by Mudstuffing on Etsy; U.K. Artist Helen Musselwhite – and a Transylvania Vintage linen cushion  velvet red Heart with tulips embroidery.






First Full Moon of Winter

Moonful Musings by Phoenix of Elder Mountain – Greetings Dreamers, Artists and Magical Souls of Earth, this full moon begins Tuesday, December 13, 2016 and starts off our three Winter Moons. Winter Solstice is December 21st and a world-wide celebration by spiritual people, pagans, some religious and naturalists who all celebrate the return of the Light. I work with this time of the year as the Return of the Nighta return of our inner light. If Autumn/Halloween is the Season of the Witch, then Winter and its long winter’s nap is  certainly the Season of the Dreamer. 


Winter’s Magic is our first powerful influence of nature when we are children, it teaches us about endurance and the need for warmth. It also shows us what nature looks like in her dress of emptiness in a positive way. Since she is the opposite of fullness and fertility of summer solstice, her stillness touches the wisdom of the time of peace when the oceans still at their greatest point which effects the collective humanity.

For eons the old souls have agreed upon this season as stillness and quiet and those who practice that with peace, stillness, silent retreats all honor a very feminine tradition called the great circle of life. So honor your moon cycle and join with those who practice the ways of peace by working with our own conflict or inner struggles.

tumblr_odurbnzxq61tnq8sxo1_500There is a bit of extra magic this moon cycle because one of the Behenian fixed stars is conjunct this full moon and that is the  fixed star Capella at 21º conjuncting the Gemini Full Moon at 22º. Any conjunction 1 or 0 degrees apart, falls into the magical and becomes more powerful.

Capella is one of fifteen stars called the group of Behenians and considered especially useful for magical applications and good luck in the western Medieval and Arabic astrology. Their name derives from Arabic bahman which means root, and the root of anything is magical when its clear.

Ancient rituals even in the older shamanic cultures and pre-shamanic dream cultures relied on the power of many offerings nature gives us. In modern times (after 2200 bce), talisman, powerful circles, dream amulet or like my Slavic effigy Marzanna are all made or created for the whole of community, tribe or clan. After the middle ages, the winter moons, when karma energy is high, from millenniums of destruction before that, began to be used for protection against living humans’ shadows that roamed during the winter months. Our sacred ceremonies of prehistory turned into winter solstice protection ceremonies and today they are mainly town or village festivals.

Saturn is our applicable and personal influence this moon cycle. The New Moon/Capella alignment is opposing Saturn/Sun. Saturn means Structure and the Moon means Emotion or Structure in cooperation with Emotion. Structures of Saturn are authority with accountability, you cannot have one without the other, otherwise its imbalanced and corrupted even in simple people. An collective example right now is the corporate power of an oil pipeline and the police protecting it.

Its opposition is Emotional power of peace is playing out with Standing Rock Lakota, which great spirit chose them in particular to lead because of their commitment to peace. They set the intention for their land with peace and the collective whole world agrees with the Lakota. That is a lot of energy to contend with, so the forces of power and shadow enters the Moon’s emotional magic with the power that is in balance (accountable) or imbalanced. As long as the Lakota can hold the wildness into its peaceful structure it will be successful. This energy will last until the Winter Solstice when the Capricorn moon shifts the month again into a new layer.


Agrippa, discussed this fixed star in his Books of Occult Philosophy as the Behenii,  which is the occult magic of Hermes Trismegistus, which in other traditions is Thoth or the Hawk Messenger, which is a common tradition of the Middle Ages. In Greek mythology Capella is the Goat and the Cart, associated with Zeus who broke off one of its horn. This is where the horn of plenty folklore comes from.

Obviously these are all tied in with the Winter Solstice and winter’s survival folklore and myths. The Nordic peoples, Swedish, Norway and others always have the image of a tomte or nesse which is a hobbit, gnome or domovoi in the Slavic tradition in their more pagan Christ celebrations. They have as their symbols, a cart being pulled by a goat. This pagan tradition is popular based on the goat of Dionysus which is also Pan the tricksters giving gifts. A cat is also the symbol of the shape shifting Tomte or Nesse’s power as a forest clan.

In the Slavic folklore Capella is called Jastreb who is the messenger in the form of a Hawk, who flies high seeking the Mother Hen (the Pleiades) and the Rooster (Nath) which is the same story about the importance of abundance in the time of winter to stay nourished over the long dark nights and challenging weather.


Capella is also connected to the Sapphire stone and the wonderful herb Thyme. So when your speak your personal Full Moon ‘release or letting go intention’ hold some thyme in your hand or sprinkle in your circle or around you or add it to your ritual. Capella involves both the rulerships of Jupiter (expansion and knowledge) and Saturn (authority and survival), so if you do any magical art, amulets or talisman work, prayer work, rituals, ceremonies, please include Capella into your night for some magical energies.

With magical enchantment Full Moons we must be careful with what we “release and let go of” this full moon. This can be any negative attitude, or a self sabotaging behavior, a struggle, an addiction, or an unconsciousness that you wish. What makes it somewhat more powerful is because the unconscious expands into our conscious for healing purposes. Have you ever had a broken heart? Well its that kind of energy you truly let go of on an inner soul level with your intention or something current. We let go each full moon of what our issue is until it releases, for some that maybe three years, for others longer or shorter amounts of cycles, it depends on what it is.

So be wise with intention work on the new and full moon, now or in ten years, don’t bite off more than you can chew which means, let go of small things moon cycle after moon cycle and trust that you will know when you’ve reached a bigger cycle of release. Same too with karma, we must experience it in order for it to be real.  You must be willing to be flexible when you work with full moon release medicine, otherwise the rubber band of tension will snap back if you don’t let go what you set in the intent for letting go. This is because our unconscious emotional fear is the ruler of this spiritual wellspring.

After doing this practice a few decades, I experienced the fears to heal them, and they got bigger not smaller, because I was getting closer to core issues and the more I became conscious with awareness, the more I could experience. The deeper one goes into their fear, the more frightening it becomes when it touches our karma. But the structures over chaos in this practice holds you tight and you learn by doing it because each moon cycle you build each brick to your foundation of trust, clear judgment, emotional self nourishment and so forth. Real lunar work is divine but also very intense, ask any of my apprentices!


I attended a Women’s Visionary Counsel yesterday, which included a circle of maidens, mothers and wise women. It gave me a powerful obsidian mirror (collective mirror) of all the women’s circles I had lead exactly like this one each and every month from 35 years old until I was 57. The facilitator used the same things I did and I applied them each moon cycle: the dreamer’s water bowl in the center of the circle altar; the alignment with the practice of the power of working with intention; calling herself facilitator as I had done for 30 years; adding to my monthly moon cycle, I did my shamanic group ceremony and soul retrievals and dream journeys on the summer/winter solstices and the spring/autumn equinoxes. So I felt right at home and peaceful the entire day and it was a mirror for my closing of my 30 years as mother, closing those doors, all karma, teachings and integration and practiced disciplines, sacrifices etc all completed.

Last week I got four wrong numbers in four days from a man named “Zero” and after the third conversation I said its the zero that is important. The forth conversation I asked him not to call again and that our time was complete. He didn’t think it was a wrong number and I assured him it was. I then waited for the synchronicity of the unmanifest to manifest in this world, of why the kind alcoholic man brought his magician’s message to me.

a-slavic-celebration-of-koljada-21st-december-date-of-the-winter-solsticeIt manifested at the Women’s Visionary Counsel gathering when a beautiful spiritual woman did her presentation of the Mayan work and spoke the word I had been anticipating in the synchronicityZERO Chiefs.

A 40 year energy wave moved within me at that moment, as I remember well Temple Doors, the prehistory woman Chief told in the story of Hyemeyohsts Storm’s book “Seven Arrows” published in 1972. It was my first introduction to Spirituality that was outside my own family  or personal shamanic experiences up until that point (I read it at 19),  it was a gift from my Sagittarian boyfriend (and four years later my husband), who gave it to me on the Winter Solstice that year.

The Magic of Winter and the enchantment has already enchanted me, so why not let it do the same for you the remaining of this moon cycle. Whether its your own shadow work if your having difficulty in your larger cycle right now, or your light that is seeking some connection. The circle of family, friends and spiritual friends all benefit from your journey because we suffer at being truly authentic in our processes of doing healing work and working with healers. We make others confront the uncomfortable things in life, because we have to.

I made an intention that I would do my healing work not only for me, but for my entire family line, I was going to suffer in my shamanic issues anyway for along time, and it was not going to stop until my initiations were complete, so I added that to my path and never regretted any of it. You must make your agreements as well in your path to develop spiritual maturity at the level and depth you can handle when making sacrifices of an emotional kind if it contributes to an increase in understanding and awareness.

Weaving our emotional life into the moon structures requires rest, rejuvenation, sobriety and hibernation is especially critical in winter moons. Slowing down in the age of Industrialism and Technology which keeps our mind-body “on” as if it were summer solstice all year long. Its a wise practice to turn this “off” in the Winter Moons and the younger you are, the easier it will be as you get older.

kroje-a-tak-pocarovnatelgart-slovakiaGemini rules the hands, and as a symbol our hands mean our purpose. A palmist knows what every single tiny line on your hand means and then we experience it in action manifested. This is palmistry power, but looking at our hand without understanding or understanding symbolism is meaningless and disempowering. When it come to our emotional life the same applies and when it comes to our souls its impossible to do the work without it.

Set your “one letting go intention” of something that no longer serves your highest good and do your ritual with Thyme this moon cycle if you feel called.

See you at the next new moon and don’t forget we are still in the 28 1/2 day lunar cycle of Sagittarius so watch out for coyotes and heyokas that don’t get their lessons also, because it must be both, otherwise the coyote steals your energy and your left with none.

This was a more personal story this full moon, it was my final closing of my temple door of my maiden and mother stages. The transit took four years but I am finally standing at the zero mark of my new door to elder on this Winter Solstice! 2017 solstices and equinoxes will be a dreaming year to gather 13 Ceremonial Women Elders to create for community, rich in wisdom, ceremony and ritual circle for maidens, mothers and wise women.

Blessings, Phoenix and Elder Mountain








Auspicious Clouds: 3rd Full Moon of Summer

Happy Full Moon Dreamers, Artists, Healers, Magicians, Moon Children, Witches, Druids, Fairy Clans! The Full Moon & Eclipse, 25 degrees Aquarius, begins Thursday, August 18, 2016 and lasts for the remaining two week duration of the Leo Moon cycle. It is a time of ‘letting go’ (sacrifice something) of our shadow nature in order to become free one more moon cycle before Autumn begins. Set your one “letting go” intention based on what your New Moon intention was two weeks ago.

Eclipsing Heaven and Earth! We are entering 3 eclipses in a row, starting with this Full Moon, a (partial) Lunar eclipse; then in two weeks on the next New Moon of Virgo on Sept.1, 2016 is the Solar eclipse, and the third and final will be the Pisces Full Moon Lunar eclipse, Sept. 16, 2016. Every late July, early August and late January, early February we get our Eclipse Baths which prepare us for the Autumn Equinox and Spring Equinox. This offers us a month of “internal” adjustment to prepare for both Equinox shifts.


The Howling and the Healing of the Moon: Approaching our personal healing journey in our life is a constant process of “detoxing” that which harms our soul, our mind, our body and our emotional sensitivities. Sometimes this comes from the self and sometimes from life situations, and it is not an easy task to approach and stay committed to this “internal” journey, unless we get a taste of it’s eternal well-spring and then we commit.

Transformations when they appear in our life, is generally a major cycle or an accumulation of issues that have become a great burden. It is required to find both strength and the steps to approach the fears of change, which surround real issues of sickness, abandonment, conflict, disrespect, miscommunications, sabotage, being cheated on etc. These require us to pull the Goddess Pandora out of her box and take a good look at our life. The mind will never wish to do this, it is always our heart that must.

If we do not open her box for many years because changes would have only added more suffering to what has already faltered, then it becomes mandatory by life itself and life blows some heavy storms towards us. People always call out for spirit messengers and totems to help us and then they come, the wind blows and hits us, people are like… what? I always learned to slay my self through my long disciplined journey, so life would not have to – because life can be both dangerous and deadly. I structured dangerous and deadly one moon cycle at a time in my long path.

In ordinary life, struggle helps us rise above our own conflict and when harvest time comes, we begin the painful pruning of the Autumn and Winter Seasons of our Soul. If you truly walk with nature , or are a pagan or druid, or even an environmentalist, then nature gives us her best examples of how to live, because she brings a death to her life in Autumn and Winter, and so should we. At harvesting and winter’s time, we call this healing and calling forth our grief, sorrow, suffering and blindness to acknowledge they are real. The third and final moon of summer prepares us for such times when the 1st new moon of Autumn arrives. This is when the great descent into the underworld is required, in order to help reclaim what sits there in its state of loss, stolen, begged or borrowed. As long as we suffer, our soul is lost in the abyss. As a shaman I have done many soul retrievals over the years for people and one soul retrieval does not do it, just as one vision quest does not make us touch those fears within. Just as one peak at our struggle does not heal it. It is an investment.

“Dissolve” is a process of holding our emotional conflict within (our pain) without any diversion, substitution, denial, pot, alcohol etc. for a short period of time – in order to burn some of our karma. Karma requires us to suffer regardless of what Philosophies were created in the the first century bce, or in the middle ages. Karma is real and it filters into some more than others. Karma is also not forever, it appears in large and small cycles and allows us opportunities to change and these mystical gates are not opened forever.

Because the gates are not opened forever, we must enter the mystical processes of… “Resolve” the process of sharing and communication of our true feelings, within our existing conflict. We share what we feel comfortable and uncomfortable with both those who support us and those who do not.


“Spiritual Practices” allow us a needed grounding when emotional chaos rises, which pushes us forth in life to change. Practices help because we become more conscious of our own issue, or how we sabotage, or enter denial without reason. Without any self monitoring of our mental body, we lose touch with what is happening in the bigger picture of self. “Healing” emotional pain, grief, sorrow or frustration increases consciousness after our emotional releases and detoxes to reclaim what we have lost through suffering.

Both dissolve & resolve helps us seek relief from emotional pain because it allows “changes” to occur  – for we must change in order to flow. Most people want only the flow or focus on flow, but in reality, we must ask ourselves where we must change first before any flowing can occur. Change is the most difficult practice to embrace of all practices because it involves our person issue, our self worth, our feelings of imperfection and the unknown source of our karmic pain. Without the addition of adding humbleness, embracing change only becomes more difficult.
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The Chinese have their Poison Charms (amulets) called the “five poisons” (wudu 五毒) which actually refers to the five poisonous animals. In contrast to what one might expect, the purpose of the five poisons depicted on the ancient amulets are to counteract pernicious influences.  This is because the Chinese believe in combating poison with poison.

There is legendary evidence to support this belief of combating poison with poison.  Shennong (神农), also known as the Yan Emperor (yandi 炎帝) who is consider the father of Chinese Medicine because he discovered and personally tested upon himself hundreds of both medicinal and poisonous herbs.  He was able to test these herbs and poisons to  observe their effects.  He never suffered very long-term effects, however, because the poisons apparently canceled each other out. The same is true with  the emotional medicines of “Opposition.”

Opposition medicines are for the etheric emotional and astral emotional soul bodies and their remembrances and memory systems – which can haunt people and feel as if resolve cannot be a permanent to overcome an issue. In fairy tales and our lives there is always an ending, a completion, a closing of a door. But in karma there is not, there is only a ‘letting go’ – for the resolve is and was timeless in the great circle, we just learn to let go without satisfaction.

In our ordinary mundane life (not karma), we can apply opposition medicines then… For example, if we are too talkative, we seek the opposite of self disciplined practices of silence or silent retreats. Nothing is separated in grandmother spider’s web except for our fear. Doing a little work emotionally each moon cycle to get stronger by stepping into that fire (our own fears) eventually we walk through it and that my friend is the only way we truly heal, is by walking through it. This medicine exists for our poisons.

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Some historical sources refer to the five poisons as consisting of “Snake, Scorpion, Tiger, Toad and Spider.” Each one of these are protective charms (amulets) and we must also ingest our own toxic emotions, mental beliefs, physical actions not of the highest good and soul karma to heal these things within us. Focusing on saving another or saving the world, takes us so far away from our own poisons which when worked with lead to our own personal protection of our soul. She is lost and lonely out in the abyss and rarely does the mind hear their own soul, it focuses on every spirit out there but their own.

Those of us who are wise enough, accept that we can only change the self and that changes first our personal world, then the world around us adding our own light to situations, not by the smiling and happy mask, but working with real issues an problems. This is how true balance is made and earned, not given and it applies to everything in our life as a living practices. We can seek the help of others and should if one is dealing with abuse, crisis, addiction, emotional abuses etc. to help show us the path with one who carries the lighted lantern, those who have done the work before you and resolved in permanent healing, for they assist us in our healing journey with power. It is our soul we are saving, fighting for and working with in a moon/lunar path and our commitment (oath) to it. It is a walk of conflict & resolve, of release and cycles of toxic release from the self, for the self to reclaim what we have lost, given away or was stolen. Everyone on the outside is just our mirror  of our “living story” so the rule is, do not throw “stones at the mirror” for its your own illusions you will see.

A healed emotional body and its astral energy makes us feel great – and it heals our body because we deal with our fears (blocks) and undo them, that is Grandmother Spider medicine as a real practice, not an excuse or a diversion to not touch our powerful sorrow, or grief or anger. These great disciplines to master the self, is always done with the mental body first, without that – the rest cannot fall into its proper dissolve and resolve.

So tell your negative thoughts about yourself to shut the fuck up first. Then listen, not only to yourself, but all your difficult teachers, all your difficult situations and begin to say I can do this, its scary as hell but I can do this.

That is why real “emotional body” work is so slow and so difficult.

Blessings, Phoenix of Elder Mountain

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Art images: Minoan relief of Goddess or Priestess Archaeological museum of Herakleion, Crete; Crystal Bowl Water Charmer (Reader) by Wagner; Wind Goddess by unknown artist.













Second Full Moon of Summer


We cannot prevent the Birds of Sorrow
from flying over our head, but we can
prevent them from building a Nest
in our Hair.  ~ Chinese Proverb

By Phoenix of Elder Mountain… Hello Dreamers, Artists, Magicians, Witches, Gypsies and Creatives, we now enter our Second Full Moon of Summer and continue on our “six moon” journey from Spring to Autumn Equinox. Yesterday my apprentice and I went to the ocean beaches near Crescent City, California and three symbols for the full moon surfaced. I write my monthly musings as a teaching of how I work with natures signs & symbols and how to work with the lunar cycles as a healing guide with practice.  First I found a water worn stick from a pine tree with one pine cone still attached, it was like a magic wand just laying there and I was pleasantly surprised. Secondly, I found and brought home 13 large empty crab shells to paint on and make an ocean dream catcher wind chime (Cancer Moon cycles are ruled by the Crab). A few days earlier, I stumbled upon two 15th century antiquity images of an astrological chart which showed Cancer’s symbol as a  “Lobster” not a Crab. This sheds new light on an old symbol of the fertility of the ocean and its relations to the moon. The third sign was a hunter who had a huge stag in the back of his truck, and all the men gathered around and just stood there for a long time.

Capricorn full moons are very earthy, as the second full moons of summer are sometimes to the point of stagnation or a slight depression, and since we seem to always exist in the two-fold reality of both protection & nourishment, sacrifice of boundaries & truth, and light & dark, the two halves of a whole in a world which solidifies the symbolism of personal security and love can be complicated for all of us. Since duality is a real thing, the solutions to our emotional issues are always found in this same duality, but duality always gives our security or love a good challenge – if we chose to use it as medicine. I call that magical medicine in a healing form, sort of like the poison that rubs up against you, its remedy grows right next to it and heals you. Then the alchemy happens making you change and eventually turn you into gold (wisdom), the highest color of spirituality, even higher than the white light.

Some philosophical, spiritual metaphysical teachings try to convince people that duality isn’t real… oh its real, very real, for the sun does set and the moon does rise because nature is real, even in her mystical forms. Our emotional nature is also real, even though its not validated very easily in the world, because it must also swim in stormy waters of illusion, delusion, denial, shock and many other forms of its entire expression. The complicated nature of our soul and emotional systems makes it hard for us to open our Pandora’s box for the sake of change in our personal life.

moon phasesThe term duality when seeking unity is where our mind and its beliefs must actually learn to bend, be silenced or sacrifice something of the self in order to feed our soul and nourish our emotion so we believe our feelings are real and worth supporting. Just like the hunter who had to actually experience  a feeling of death with the stag in order to feed his family in the way he chooses. In other words, its not easy to be authentic in what we believe in or what we express in our personal intimacy, it leaves us vulnerable. Giving our emotional life more acknowledgement is the hunt, trusting we are the great Huntress of the Moon – for within us, is the eternal emotional and soul’s reality and the millions of years of our emological development of our souls. Certainly within this, we can help bring validation to the seemingly impossible ocean of our soul’s depth, and the frightening part each time we find courage to support our sensitivities, we never know how far down we must swim to resolve a personal issue and this is how we learn to build self trust.

Not many like to touch the soul in spiritual work, much less making it a valid spiritual teaching because it gets sticky, its painful, messy and requires real core honesty. Yes you won’t find it in any druid circle, temple or juicy circles. Why? Because only we can validate our feelings, only we can validate our mysticism and our ‘seeing’ as real and when we are ready to accept them as valid and stand up for them, then we are ready to travel the winding paths of our soul for our souls sake. Rejecting the realism of duality is nothing more than the mind saying that the soul is not valid in its untouchable yet felt existence and these statements shall come from those who closed the door to feelings and mysticism and magic long ago, and many even lifetimes ago.

The definition of Illusion: Something that is or is likely to be wrongly perceived or interpreted by the senses; a deceptive or misunderstood appearance or impression; a false idea or belief. Illusions are both real & not real at the same time, they fall into the in-between reality of mystery and the magical parts of us, and in our mundane life for example, it can also play out very powerfully when our innocence becomes shattered. This is why the fairy clan has some very dark sides to it, this is why putting all your eggs (fertility, love and moon magic) in another’s basket can and sometimes does result in the deepest feelings of loss. This is human feeling and we also have the keys to heal it rather than turn to our shadow for power.


All of these are paths of karma and through its pain, hurt and disappointments, is what emotionally frees us if we chose to do the second half of the duality work, which is the nourishment (healing) aspects of our hurt. The magical part is that all of this pain, eventually frees our real soul (astral body) if we spend half the time healing it with real healing work like therapy, or energy healing or yoga etc. Our soul holds so much personal power, but she is always the last to be freed. Having been a healer a long time, when I did a lot of readings weekly as a Seer I would hear: “I thought he loved and respected me, but I was just a fool to think it was real love.” I would counsel duality and share that it was real love, or real love while it was alive and growing, and at the same time, endings comes through fate even though we are not ready, we are never ready. These experiences can crush our innocence, for it changes what is out of balance.

In our domestic nature with its dualistic shadow and light, this silent, blurry and non-verbal brain has more power to work with difficulty.  The best time to accept what is happening as ‘real’ is when we come to terms with how many times we have tried to convince our self things are not real or others telling us things are not real. To reconcile our problems with “real” we must seek the opposite of what has been done from habit. We have our feelings and we have our mundane life and these two clash all the time and are too restrained in the modern world.

Nature teaches us that duality does exist and that we can see it right before our eyes, if we are willing to look. Anything that we says doesn’t exist, means we have not looked at it closely enough or long enough to experience it. That comes in handy if your hiking and there is a bear nearby, but not in personal relationships or in mystical realities. The rule in metaphysics is, anything you focus on long enough with patience, will expand and become real and seen: wanted or unwanted. The one I feared the most, after my second of three awakening stages was: Anything you believe is truth, you will eventually have to walk through. I had reflected on the things I said I believed in up to that point and dreaded what I might have to experience… and I did.

The greatest lessons in life are the choices we make and while some of us work at uniting our personal separations, trying to separate parts of ourselves, only creates fragmented duality. Embracing “change” in real ways is like a fairytale or mythology, this fear is called the monster. In folktale and shamanic (non-plant) healing work, we realize we have at some point been the monster or the situation we are in is the monster, but with humility and groundedness, we can face the monster’s very real and deep seated fear within us.

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I had a dream about three years ago and in the dream I told myself that I had made only one mistake. Back then I had thought, what could that one mistake have been?  Because in reality I had made so many mistakes in my spiritual journey, there were so many difficult choices to make. I could not imagine which one it was from all the tests I have been given. I review that dream again because the memory of that dream returned to me today, but its not about “which monster” it was anymore, its how many monsters I overcame, accomplished, healed and made peace with to dissolve one the monster at a time. That is what is most important for all of us when we asses our struggles.

 Because this moon cycle is about our “root” it is wise to let the little monsters flush up and be seen and dealt with it one at a time. For some of you, issues came right away on the new moon, for the other half, it begins on the full moon. For those of you who are having a pleasant moon this month, do the work anyway, because it helps us feel strong and capable when those three struggling moons of challenge comes forth. Its better to work with all the moon cycles because we make it a practice of flowing emotionally and when difficult moons can seem so crippling. Adding energy work to this helps greatly, especially if you are in a longer phase of crisis, divorce, recuperation from an accident or a loss of a family member. This is a Capricorn Full Moon at its essence. Let go~

For those of you who are new here, each month on the new moon we set “one intention” for our “internal nature” (the external world is a goal). When this internal “intention” comes to its fullness on the full moon, we then set one release intention and slowly we begin to structure a relationship to our inner world. The rewards are feeling better and working without our emotions and their stresses.

Full Moon release intention examples:

I let go of my personal victim
I release my inner bully
I release my need to be right vs happy
I let go of my toxic behavior (which one?)
I release unhealthy scattered thoughts
I let go of emotional suffering
I release projecting my pain
I let go of sadness
I release blocks to my self-nurturing
I let go of harmful intimate behaviors
I release avoiding confrontation
I let go of toxic thoughts
I release my depression
I let go of harmful attitudes
I let go of my false expectation (of what?_____)
I let go of rigidity
I release feelings of insecurity
I let go of guilt
I release my fear (which one?_____)
I let go of grief
in a grounded way
I let go of my busy mind
I release stagnation
I let go of being angry

Blessings and see you at the third new moon of Summer!
Phoenix of Elder Mountain

Image sources: Photo of Magpie bird, photographer unknown; Russian artist Rubrum Lepus – Creature.







3rd New Moon of Spring – The Soul and the Magic 5


The 3rd Moon of Spring
Taurus Moon Cycle
May 6 – June 3, 2016
Monthly Elder Musings
by Phoenix of Ashland
to be on our monthly Moon-Musings!

Greetings Dreamers, Artists, Moon Children and the Bird, Animal and Ocean clans who have now stepped into the fields of Elder Mountain …
  We are entering our third and final moon cycle of Spring, I hope the fullness of your second moon ended on a completion which was satisfying to the fulfillment of your new moon intention one moon ago! We begin again and for my sharing this last moon of spring, I wanted to speak with you about the values of Magic, of making Sacrifices and the deeper lessons of Listening and how these three work together in Soul work and Soul healing. Magic, the term which I am expressing here, is that part of you who whispers to your mind & body and says:

“You have a Soul and a huge Spirit, which are very important for your personal evolution of consciousness, continued awakening and your well-being on a day to day level. So take care of her, nourish her and pay attention to her, for she is worth your emotional well-being at all times and the eternity and promise of your future reincarnation’s well-being.”

The Sorceress 1626 by Jan van de Velde II, Dutch, 1593—1641. Engraving, trimmed within platemark,

There are many terms for magic and I am speaking of the forms of “experiences in your real life” which can be very beautiful and for some, include the mystical experience or it can be very upsetting within the realms of our karma and the changes it demands of us. The senses of our pleasure dominates our mind-body and it’s reality, but when we wish to be in touch with our soul and its first gate, the emotional body, sacrifices must be made.

We have all lived in this world and still do where the mental body and service to him rules all, while she has faded further and further away from your and her reality. All mythologies, folklore, religions and even fairytales speak of this never ending agreement that we make with her and how it changes our life and changes our path for the better, through the difficulty of crisis for emotional growth. By sacrifice, I don’t mean being a doormat or only giving service with kindness and light… those things never truly get our souls out of hell and into the magical reality that can exist, along with nature.

I am speaking of the required work to bring the excesses of pleasures, denial and addictions of any kind, back into balance and harmony. As an emotional practice of the actual Soul bodies of health which need no medicines, no pot to lower or heal its pain, no chemicals synthetic or natural. For her, the soul, expressing real and deep truth, sharing our reality and our tears with its consequences, standing up for healthy boundaries and emotional risk, all to rides the waves of ‘feeling’ for the detoxing of emotional pain. For those who enter the deeper soul emotional practices, learning then walking within total chaos with agreement, totally detoxes the core past life karmic issues.

We are generally driven by the mental body and the shadow parts of our soul for gratification, avoiding within the denial of issues that arise from survival, rejection, control, being wrong, issues etc. The mental body is a wicked defender and will not let you open her soul gates, fate and karma and cycles of healing holistically must do this until the time is ready and you must pass the mental body tests to end up sane in the end when you do reach these past life shadow astral souls of yours. Some bust her gates open prematurely with sex abuse, shamanic drugs, dmt etc. and the consequences only begin after 40 years old.

Wladyslaw T 2Some examples are if you have to deal with any coyote archetypes or the rising and new ‘mental body’ coyote types in your life as a pattern of your personal soul growth, then you must eventually find the key to the coyote within, in order to change this life pattern. Another example is if you decide to give up real emotional drama as a healthy choice, that energy must then filter into something else, its symbolic counterpart is generally creativity. Learning to sacrifice one thing for another is how our soul heals and finds it’s  balance to the mental bodies stubbornness, opinionated and at more severe levels, the arrogant. If we don’t change, we then have a sensory system which can pop up as a disease in midlife, or be over stimulated and overloaded (which is also a form of stress) in our current life, and can lead to many things such as depression, exhaustion, rage, self hate or any emotional based imbalances.

Listening then has two functions, one to the self and our inner behaviors being expressed and beginning to observe with practices and the second are the others who are involved in our personal mirrors. Listening cannot be separated from real magic, which exists in the super-subtle of the mundane of our real life. I experience a lot of magic in my life monthly, both human and mystical realities along with nature’s magic, but from the outside, one would view my life as pretty dull and mundane if they didn’t listen deeply or experience with me.

Balance is also a very specific magical act and tends to be in harmony or dis-harmony through the act of angry sacrifice or through self-sacrifice with awareness. Soul (emotional body work) is learning to walk the double edged sword. If your not walking any double edge sword emotionally of a personal issue, your still in stage one (mind-body healing) or life hasn’t opened up your soul yet. Soul work always involves giving up something which no longer serves your highest good, and this sacrificing (willingly with other types of healing) will dull one of the edges of the sword. That ‘something’ is generally called emotional control issues, the ego and it’s shadow side (djinn), the busy mind to avoid feeling, and the root: emotional fears.

Self-sacrifice allows us to learn to listen deeply so one day you will touch that small inner voice, as a first step, the untouchable knowing, and learning to fall without getting hurt very badly which is called grace in soul work (not mental body work). Our soul expresses her real living life through things such as meditation (prayer for others), acknowledging our karma (the really shitty stuff in our life), our dreams at night, and through our intuition during the day. Acts of the deepest listening only after you semi-master or master shutting the mind down and controlling your mind, not others. This is an intricate part of this magic and our healing processes on emotional issues goes a long way. If we have an upsetting dream, then you are not listening to your soul, if she has to send you a night mare via your dreams. This is how she speaks to those who are soulful people, dreamers, artists and healers.

Try to make an effort to touch the parts of yourself which are lost, broken, out of balance and even the parts your not conscious of such as the real inner child (astral body) or past life karma which fuels all the events in our life in the non-physical way or the results of manifestation of the physical. When parents speak of their great children, sometimes its as if its their soul they are proud of, but every wise parent knows that our children are given as lessons as well, both the perfect ones who crash in their 40s and the rebel children who have learned all life lessons by 40. If we take the path of being proud of our own soul, its shadow to work on while raising children, its a struggle but a win, win situation in the end. Fear, parental fear, maiden and youth fear, adult fear, are all the  experiences (anything that troubles us constantly) in life that are soul issues… and I guarantee something small will shift if you dedicate even a little attention to your real feelings and how these are painful without stopping the processes with anything.


Sometimes pleasure & magic, get in each others way and issues tend to fall into two categories:

1. A lack of feeling in control (thus one gives away too much of the self without self respect); 2. Tendencies of being in control / controlling others (and feeling a false sense of power).

Regardless of where we all fall within these two oppositions, our journey is to understand who we are  – which helps us shape our growing values into useful tools and something we can see… rather than just deal with projecting our small ego or the satisfying expressions of hierarchical pitfall and struggles.

Anything harmful in our personal world is personal fear and within fear it is called lack – lack is a lack of awareness of how to respond with our magical instinct that our soul is so good at and carries for you to use anytime, anywhere if you would only take the time to discipline the mind. But if we cannot take care of our soul, we cannot access her magical qualities which are empowering and sublime when used and having mastered soul work as a healer (who has healed the self for a long time with many moon cycles), I have experienced first hand, with this work of soul energy that is personal, to shift extremely dangerous situations as a shaman. Notice I do not use the word love, because love is not only a given, but its also as impersonal as the word universe and those are a mental body’s language. Soul is personal and intimate when it comes to the spiritual path.

There are real solutions to our emotional and soul issues, and these come through our detoxes and disappointments (breaking through illusions) in our physical, emotional and mental life. There are no “permanent” changes of our karmic life issues without…

The Magic 5 of all who have attained self-enlightenment

Spiritual Disciplines

Self-Sacrifice (The multiple Soul Bodies)
Emotional Healing
(1st Soul Body)

Real spiritual processes that include the emotional and soul bodies are  not under our control, and are very to extremely painful, and step us into into real fears after mind-body reality has been mastered. The many aspects of our soul both light and heavy with shadow, are very complex, eternal and animistic with dreaming realities. The foundations of mental illness and soul sickness has built huge psychological Universities and Prisons equally. At the core of who are, lives our deepest fear which comes out as repeated behavioral patterns that are very difficult to break, but we must swim towards this deep lake at first to see what is down there and this requires commitment, then learn to let go which is even more difficult in the flow of the great river. And for the fated only, the river drowns you into the deepest and darkest ocean, to touch your collective soul.

Albert Klingner (German, 1869 - 1912)So for this third moon of spring, the Taurus moon, listening, paying attention and monitoring the shadow sides of our pleasure, work, love life and listening or anything we find stressful  is also our strength on the other side of the dreaming. The image of one hand passing of karma to the other hand which holds dharma, is the two hands of the Mind and the Soul. Mind must surrender to soul in order for change to occur. But to most people, the majority, real magic of the soul and the soul itself doesn’t even exist.

For those who do believe in the emotional body and its higher souls, make it a goal to not argue with those who do not, what they cannot feel or see is where their evolution is at. If we work on that one particular issue this moon cycle to become very aware of it and committed to it, and help our mind and body relax by adding massage, meditation, yoga, healing, sobriety, counsel or any other healthy practice into our moonly cycle, the choices do not become easier… they become clearer.

Go ahead and walk into the “forest of mirrors” this month and look your struggle straight into the eyes, because you are given an allotment of time to do this work, to walk through this magical fated lifetime and we all know when these gates open and close. I had a forty year old homeless woman tell me this week that she was writing her book, and realized the book was all about her finally, which she had not realized the last few years of working on it. What made her see this awareness? Her second short term partner had passed away and it was she who was grateful to be totally responsible for making sure he was not alone. The rule is: The more struggle and loss, the greater the magic and awareness.This is how we heal karma that opens the door to real magic.

So, if you are looking for a change, a resolve, healing grief, or struggling in a divorce situation, or any other struggle in your life, try to recognize the mundane aspects first of any struggle, for your real life is a work of art, a pleasure realm that needs monitoring once in awhile. Your Soul will know when you are beginning to listen to her through its lowest levels which are emotions, and the acceptance of these sacrifices so changes can begin to occur. So many close the door and run away, fearing the unknown (change), but the beauty of real change is difficult and there are no short cuts or denying that pain is part of growth. I encourage you this moon cycle, to stay committed to your magical soul – just one more month!

3rd New Moon of Spring Intentions Examples:
Choose only one intention or come up with one of your own…

I am grounded
I am emotionally balanced
I honor my grief
I respect myself
I am beautiful
I am good enough
I create expectations only for myself
I share my feelings honestly
I allow support
I trust my intuition the “first time”
I value who I am right now
I value my feelings
I value my  _________
I love & respect my body
I practice healthy desires
I am strong and use my strength to support myself
I use my strength to protect myself
I focus on my healthy desires
I express my emotional self in an artist manner
I learn from my frustrations
I see myself clearly
I am impeccable with my words
I judge only my own actions
I find the time to rest

Elder Mountain Video of this Moon…

Artwork: The Sorceress 1626 by Jan van de Velde II, Dutch, 1593—1641. Engraving, trimmed within platemark; Illustration by Albert Klingner (1869 – 1912); Wladyslaw T. Benda (1873 – 1948) (detail).