By Phoenix of Elder Mountain – I want to share my experiences (not knowledge) over the last 35 years for the general public, to help those interested in understanding the whole “black eyed, red eyed, white eyed” reality going on in the world today. The secrets of our soul, its astral body and our mind, and its astral body are quite complex. There are aspects of animism which also can fall into the eyes but I will stick with human in this article.
Shadows are shadows and light is light and they are all real, from their over glorified sci-fi twisting things out of shape, to fairy tale monsters, these all have to do with real humans with karma and how the demonic aspects of our astral bodies come into our spaces, from the self and our own past life or those in our intimate circle, like family.
This energy is real and penetrating and for those born as seers who actually “see” and don’t use the mind or eyes to do so, you know what I am speaking of. And the dream walking shamans who are rare and can see a thousand times deeper (without the distortions of alcohol, pot or shamanic plant-drugs) we have a responsibility to help others understand and lessen the fears.
Neptune, the planet who rules energy, dissolve, mysticism, self undoing and the military will all be revealed as it gets deeper into its own sign of Pisces in the next ten years. There is nothing new in the world over the last 10,000 years, everything has always been here, but most of the light got corrupted by religion and most of the shadow got elevated and glorified by power hungry seekers like vampires or reptilian people. But its just a matter of time, that all humanity as it wakes up will begin to see and without good solid spiritual disciplines for groundedness, do not expect fear to over rule you.
Everything now is being flexed and in states of flexibility in the world of our souls, our soul’s fragments that roam (light or dark) and its energy body, but ghost hunters or paranormal people still, after 40 years have no idea or clue that living humans have roaming soul fragments called demons and shadows and paranormal people have no idea that UFO’s are U.S, and Russian advanced military. In other words, they are still totally asleep regardless of their popularity and mantras, and refuse to change their schtick for ratings on their video shows.
As the veils slowly drops, more and more are going to start seeing eyes shift to black, and its wise to keep things in perspective for the future. Not everyone will see of course, but those who do must remember that the greedy and selfish or empathic emotional soul body has a life of its own, and not always controlled by our mind-body.
Its said: “The Eyes are the windows to the Soul” and this is extremely correct in the relations between the life of our physical (body & mind) and our non-physical reality of our soul and emotional body’s (energetic reality) of shadow. These are all the multiple and subtle realities of a human and an animist. Animism is most popular in Transylvanian or French Vampires and especially the corruption of writers of the Middle Ages, those people lived in a time of great unconsciousness but when the veils were thin. Veils cycle from thin to thick and we are coming up to an age of thinness again but in the energy of consciousness. Makes all the difference in the world of the invisible realities made visible.
The illustrations and photos that I use here are solid black eyes, but in real life, our normal eye or eyes when they begin to shift into black (clair-vision) are not so solid, they can be dark to mid gray-black or black. The more black the eye is and less of the regular eye showing through, the more severe the shadow body issues of our astral body that the person has. In terms of our living soul which has both a human light (astral body) and all of us which have a karmic human shadow (astral body)… these are starting to bleed through the veil of self, which is an energetic wall that hides the shadow and the black eyes in nature or our normal mundane life.
Every single human being alive has this black eyed issue and I can see the good, the bad and the ugly when it comes to such reality. Because you don’t see it, doesn’t mean its not present before some of us. Or those who have witnessed it, doesn’t mean your an exorcist who deals with it weekly… so listen and learn to keep your self from over-judgment and to keep yourself safe.
When we throw in our animism astral bodies that we possess, knowingly which is very rare (and our healing relationship to it) or unknowingly (non-experienced) and unknown about such things, there are going to be some rude awakenings in the future. Even the most knowledgeable and experienced spiritual or faithful person most likely doesn’t have the “whole” understanding only pieces and bits and bits of experience.
I am sharing because I have thirty years of experiencing and its been my work to learn about it, learn how it works, to clear it and what is dangerous. It is good to know the fact because awakenings are hard enough, and soul awakenings are much harder because not since the middle ages has there been the freedom of shadow and karmic awakenings happening on earth.
Over the last 8 years, the artists have been drawing, painting and animating red eyed humans, black eyed humans and white eyed humans. There is a reason for this, it is because the artists are picking up what we Dreamers (shamans) like myself have been seeing and living with in the waking world, and the dreaming worlds for the last twenty years since the veils have been opening.
The waking world is much more frightening when experiencing first hand (more than a few times) but daily of watching peoples eyes turn black when you speak with them, be they stranger or family. It took me years to understand with hard dedicated work and real shamanic slayings of the non-physical and energetic realities that humans possess as part of their souls and to do it with compassion. First one must slay, then the human will listen and not in reverse.
The veils are getting thin now and I am writing this article so you can be prepared for your future, and try to learn something new about how it works. Remember “we all have this” all 8 billion of us on earth have real karma and the gates of this type of pain and torture has not opened. Many think their saturn return is this type of pain, no, that is just ordinary life progression from youth to adult (27-32 years of age). Many even think they are shamans because of the struggle of that “human” gate or the midlife transformation crisis gate (37-43 years old). Discernment must play an important role with real black eyes, red eyes and white eyed humans, be it the self, loved ones or strangers.
We have been veiled since the 12th century and the 3rd century before that, veiled from this type of activity in a larger collective sense. Now that the shift is heating up, more and more will begin to see the eyes of karma overlaying the physical layer in others and even the self. This is the energetic reality of our soul, of our non-ordinary reality (our waking dream and night dreaming reality of our energetic soul, emotional body and energetic mental body which I call our “astral bodies.”
Part of my gift as an Empath is the more advanced Seer gifts. Even within the seer gifts there are layers of beginner, to more advanced to extreme seeing. I am in that last category and not a day goes by where I do not see a black eye or eyed person who is a good person, just walking to work or shopping or doing anything. With the combination of seeing and walking in between the veils and dreaming (as a shaman) this has led to doors opening in sight that has changed my life.
In the last fifteen years, I have seen in my normal waking life, those who have black eyes and on the rare occasion, those with red eyes. The most difficult part for me was when I first started seeing others black eyes, it was scary but since I already had a lot of extremely frightening experiences in my shamanic life, I knew I could just practice grounding myself and work with this.
One person would have a left eye black or a right eye would be black, and sometimes a person had both eyes black. I eventually grounded myself enough with strong boundaries to suspend judging a person, but that took practice, especially with strangers because its shadow I am dealing with on some level and the person is unconscious of this. As a healer (shaman), slayer and a medicine person it was and still is my responsibility to work with it in a state of grounded compassion with razor sharp boundaries that can strike.
There is not much I don’t see about the soul of a human being coming through the flesh of the energetic reality superimposed over the physical layers. and when you can see black eyes of people or children or even elders, they absolutely don’t know their eyes are black, so I would just have to observe until I learned which eye meant what and whether it was external issues or internal (soul) issues or both causing the black eyes. Many young people can’t help see, especially the group of young adults with the Neptune/Uranus conjunctions. Just like late 40s to early 50s people who have the 1966-69 Pluto/Uranus conjunctions.
It took me about five years of hard work in my shamanic life, to know the hows, whats and whys and to be at peace with it and gain my own perception so I could judge exactly what was occurring with a person, my self, my family and basically everyone I met. I could see the superimposed layers of their energetic soul. With fifteen years of experience now as a demon slayer and huntress who trains apprentices, I know it like my own souls that were purified in my own painful journey.
Sometimes i would just be very direct if they were aggressive or arrogant and come right out and say it to them… they would shut down because when one is intimate with a stranger on that level, they generally run away. I did notice what also was happening, was when I had ordinary people were my clients (because I can see everyone’s black eyes), if they worked out their issues with me during their session or I did shamanic work with them or folk healing, energy work etc, their eyes would clear during the session.
LEFT EYE BLACK
Left eye rules right side symbolically and this is our “giving” side. If we are selfish and not giving regardless of what we think of our self this has effects on our overall balance as a human beings. In terms of shadow, the left eye rules over the “External” and this is effected by our “behavior.”
There are a variety of external things in life that can effect our left eye, from anything to bloodshot eyes of no sleep, too much hard liquor, irritations, and many normal physical issues. But when speaking of shadow, the Illusion causing substances are the most common for the energetic layer of the black left eye. This can be caused from daily use or every other day of smoking pot, drinking alcohol, substances, pharmaceuticals, psyche meds, shamanic drugs etc in its more extreme levels. For the harder substances it could be once a month or once a week that turns the left eye black.
Remember only the rare of us can see this in-between the physical and energetic (mind/emotional body astral) world everyday, some get a glimpse once in awhile and some see it a few times a year. Its the ones who can see, that must understand how this works. Those who feel deeply whats been written here also may have awakening sight in the future so its recommended to remember the facts I post here.
Left black eye can be sometimes seen by a partner or the parent of a child who has a shadow issues or addictions, or the child can see an alcoholics eyes turn black and too frightened to mention or not understand. In more severe cases, those who are abusive to a partner or child will definitely have a black left eye or both eyes black, especially if the brunt of their abuses and more severe projections, emotionally, physically or mentally abuse happens. Its not only the abuser in the intimate circle that can have a left black eye, but the fearful one also who is abused.
The clearing of the left black eye is therapy and healing therapies of the behavior and behavior modifications or ego modifications that can help. Its not wrong to call the police on a loved one whose behavior is abusive of course, but many do not in intimate circles. For those who are abused or their children by a partner or bully, its wise today to step up and protect the best that you can. Because even if you cannot see the black eyes, these are their behaviors and they can be modified with help.
Good advice from a sister or friend is not strong enough, but real professional help be it therapist or healer etc or even spiritual purity and disciplines help greatly. If the person refuses help for their issue or in great denial (and denial is extremely normal), then the black stays permanent until they get some kind of help like a cop arresting them, a behavior found out rather than secret, or an involuntarily bad car accident. Sometimes life takes over when humans cannot. I have been to nursing homes and generally in a room of 20 there will be about 5 elders who have black eyes, except they are old and cannot do any purification anymore nor hurt anyone anymore.
RIGHT EYE BLACK
This is an “Internal” issue and generally is only from and about the person, or what has come into the person from the non-physical reality, such as dreams at night or in-between the worlds of physical and energetic. Its not really any external sources of physical reality, since its their soul, emotional or astral body or someone else who is effecting the right eye.
The mirrors of such shadows can appear though, as a mirrored reflection in the waking life such as shadows and shadow roamers (dark karmic astral bodies) of living human beings. That can be one of the external-internal realities happening to the person whose right eye keeps going black. Substances of any kind, also effects the weakness of boundaries of the (right) black eye person also but its not the source.
Many young people in psyche wards do need to be under some restraint just like adults in regard to their demonic past life fragmented demonic shadow (astral body), but as a shaman I also know that medicating them only makes it worse and lets their past life astral body come up from the underworld and possess them, which then requires more meds.
Shadow roamers effect black right eye issues – this is a lot more complex and has levels from light to severe. It can be the person and their own shadow that is near, roaming around them (they probably do not know), it can be coming from their dreams at night and what is happening over there that is effecting their astral emotional body and a few other things. There are levels of shadow (astral body fragments) that are also an issue. When I work with others, I work with the whole story of that person, this lifetime, their personal issues, their abuses from their childhood etc. The karmic layers are revealed to me in dreaming, hence why I am a dreamer (shaman) and generally I can take care of their demon and separate it from the living mundane part of the person.
Because our souls (emotional body and astral body and even the animism body) is like a watery sponge, we can also absorb negative, demonic and dark energy from others in our family, especially if they smoke pot everyday as a potaholic or alcoholic (drinking even one drink everyday). This can as well turn our eyes a lighter shade of black also. When I see anyone with black eyes, there are levels, it can be lighter dark to intense black like the movies where it covers the entire eye… and that is when its more serious.
I see them in everyone, I can tell the light issues all the way to those who have more demonic issues and its because the VEILS are getting thin on earth that eventually many and maybe even all will see. In the last four or five years, black eyes and red eyes has been showing up in art work by artists who are not seeing it as real, but perceiving what is to come, as all artists do. Eventually many will see the soul eyes and its shadow or its void.
BOTH EYES BLACK
When both eyes are black, its a more severe issue of both outer behaviors including drugs wine pot and inner soul issues of the dark astral shadow body that belongs to that person. Many people think they are able to hide their issues, but not to everyone, especially real shamans and we shamans call them out when we run across them out in the world. This pulls their demon back and gives the human more of a chance to become free from their shadow.
Both eyes black, combines both perpetrator and victim and abuses of substances as a lifestyle be that willing or unwilling. I have seen many young homeless people with both eyes black, at least the ones who have had sexual and physical abuses as children and smoke pot or drink at their current stage of life. The longer they don’t get help, the more the demonic possession happens gradually until balance must be restored by nature or natural ways. Its wise not to judge if its strangers because one eye black or both, happens to everyone, it just can’t be seen by the majority. Be the person in prison or at the grocery store and a what you would term a good person, a normal person or even you.
This reality is only because the veils are getting thin and one would have to remain grounded before casting strong judgment against someone. If you do come across a family member or friend, I would highly suggest getting help from me, or another ‘real’ shaman who has experience. When both eyes are black, your dealing with a demonic astral shadow body that is near and close.
VOID BLACK EYES
Void black eyes are the one exception and I only work with others in personal consultation so they are not confused and have more clarity with their particular issue of these types of matters. When dealing with spiritual and soul realms of illusion, its a huge world to deal with and much work must be done in order to find clarity of the correct path to both what things are and how to resolves them.
Now for the more extreme and cautionary
understandings of the Red Eyed
and the White Eyed:
WHITE EYES
Most people think colors in these arenas of life is dark is bad and white light is good. Not necessarily when it comes to White eyes. This area falls specifically under possession and possession of djinns (or mental bodied living humans or dead human (aliens). This astral body showing through the person who is possessed, strictly falls under the “metal body shadow (astral body)”. When a foreign “dark” mental body possesses another, it mixes with the person emotional astral body and their physical eyes, with the possessors mental astral body’s eyes.
Example: You see the BBC or CNBC media personality whose eyes shape shift from normal to a glazed over duller white super imposed… That is when an outside mental astral body that is evil or dark, takes over the mental body of a normal human being. White eyes are one of the most complex and it took me years of seeing and experiencing to finally understand the puzzle pieces of the two astral bodies.
A demonic mental body that does not belong to the person, which can be an incarnated human or an ancient human who can no longer reincarnate (because they lost their soul emotional body a long long time ago), can take over and mentally possesses a person. Normally its a person of power, so don’t judge so hard, those who have been possessed in this way. But also make sure you stay clear of them, but most celebrities or power hungry corporate people are protected in their small circles in life and your never going to enter that anyway unless you sell your soul to be in their spaces. Many mathematics and science students, especially prodigies are selling their souls right and left today.
Those are the main two, pure light or demonic dark of the mental body of humans dead or alive. It takes both a soul, emotional body and a mental astral body to reincarnate and those who can no longer incarnate, roam with only their mental body. These humans are what paranormal people call “ancient aliens”… yes they were once fully human, now have no soul, only a very powerful mental body. They are not from another planet, they are human and from earth, anything on earth is from earth. A whole cult reality has developed since the fifties, but that is when the CIA got involved in hiding facts that they are soulless humans and they have known back then and still known. Most heads of CIA and FBI are possessed and stay out of the view of cameras of mental astral body possessors. Sounds like sci-fi doesn’t it… yes it does and the artists in the 50s and early 60s were showing you exactly what was real and making it entertainment.
We also have an issue with the shadow sides of science doing demonic things such as experimentation of peoples energy bodies, cross hybridizing animal and human genetics. Its gotten out of hand in some of these military-science cooperatives as they are by passing natural laws of incarnation with test tube babies etc. And what they do on the dream planes would really frighten you. Just scale it by the billions of dollars given to science and the military since the 1980s yet the war budgets do not match, a lot of this money goes into doing genetic manipulation experiments mixing human’s emotional energy soul body. And we the soul people have to deal with this when we can see.
White eyes do not belong to the Djinn because djinns are clear astral bodies through and through. I describe it as the “clear heat” on a desert road that you can see. A Djinn can be living humans or ancient humans (which uneducated and inexperienced people call Aliens). These are non-incarnating ancient humans who only have a mental body (clear astral body) left. They are extremely telepathic beyond what one can imagine, and can possess a persons mind. I have first hand experience in this and fought it by mastering Zen for five years every single day. That worked for me, but it was a matter of survival.
Unlike the Muslim superstitious versions of Djinn, as I stated the Djinn is just the clear astral body of the mental body of any human or a non-incarnated human who can possess others but only for a short amount of time if the person does not fight it. Some entertainers even say they sold their soul to the devil, well if its the soul its a red eyed demonic possession and if their eyes are white, they sold it to a Djinn.
Like the red eyed demons, these white eyed demons (djinns who possess the persons white astral body), are non living ancient humans who lost their soul a long time ago and are more collective human demonic forms and can not incarnate anymore. They lost their soul.
In the real terms I call them ancient Djinns (Jinns) who are not living nor can they incarnated. In the terms of more normal Djinns with shadow, these are living and incarnating humans but I have never seen yet an incarnated white eyed or red eyed human. They are either angelic white or demonic possession white (eyes).
The Djinn human’s mental body, has no color at all, its just clear energy and will not show up as dark in the persons eyes. The white eyes requires great discernment. As I stated, Illusion is the most difficult of all teachings at the highest levels of the mystery and karmic teachings and enters the death realms of such mystery. Discerning white eyes can be both shadowy evil or pure and good angelic types, depending which body its coming from.
Djinns mental astral bodies are where all ‘demonic’ voices are heard from and these are living human beings who are out of body roaming in their mental body or a persons own past life demonic djinn shadow body speaking to them. The energy is clear energy and will not show any color in the eyes at all. This is why people do not understand and think only the emotional soul body is demonic… actually the mental body demonic body is more prevalent in modern times because of technology.
A human (djinn) mental body can also try to possesses another’s body or control their mind. This happens and confuses shamans and doctors who believe in the supernatural of human beings souls and mental bodies astral bodies. When those eyes turn pure white there are two reasons:
“Dark Side” of the Light
Living people who I call Djinn (mental bodied human who is living). Those who are dead (are the ancient aliens and roaming around) but there are not many of them. Shadows of Emotional Bodied Souled Living Humans (demons, vampires, reptilians, werewolf, skin-walkers etc). Example: A Christian preacher, judging prostitutes and then sleeps with them in secret. In other words, the judgmental happy hypocrites who have dirty little secrets.
“Light Side” of the Dark
This is a pure dharma (no karma) Soul of a souled emotional body human (who is living). These are the demon slayers and vampire huntresses of the world etc. Those souled ones who are dead, you call them Angels but when they are Angels on the light side of the dark they are “warrior angels” which means they slay demons and vampires etc also. Those who are living incarnated humans are angelic, meaning no karma (dharma) and they too are demon slayers, vampire slayers etc. To know the difference is the most difficult part.
RED EYES
Red eyes fall into the “emotional soul body astral body of permanent karma) there is no healing that can occur. Eventually the red eyed soul will get weaker and weaker through their incarnations and eventually fall to the lower and lower levels of the underworld until they are absorbed by mother earth herself.
They are a whole other reality and league and are demonic shape shifters who i never let get 20 feet into my space. I never break that rule, ever and I am a long time huntress and slayer with decades of experience. There are only both eyes red, not one unless an innocent is in the process of being fully possessed by their own demonic past life astral body or by another person in their intimate circle.
The movies like New Moon and Anime have tried to convince you this is harmless or heal-able like black eyed souls, not so and not truth, those who produce these types of movies with the wrong information makes people have their guards down. Well don’t. With black eyed humans, one or two eyes, that is true, you can relax a bit more, but not red eyed demonic ones, the undead, and not only the undead but demonic undead. The series Supernatural is probably the closest thing to the truth, but there are many parts of it, that I could adjust and bring to a more correct level, but most of it is pretty good and on target, except: guns don’t kill demons, energy does and if your not carrying pure energy and dharma energy, then you are over powered easily.
A severe black eyed person can start to get hints of red but it doesn’t mean their soul is gone yet, its just in the process. Red Eyed humans are pure demonic, they are not living and they are the simplest to understand of them all. They are the pure demonic humans, and there is no healing nor negotiation with them. And its wise to walk away.
These pure demon humans from the underworld and they are “not living” human beings, they have “no right” to be here. A vampire human is simple and weak compared to a red eyed demon. They are rare because the balance of light will always be near them because they are pure evil.
If you encounter a stranger or a person in any situation, walk away. There is nothing you can do, they are the most demonic of all things on earth and I heavily advise if they have come into your personal circle to call a real demon slaying shaman like myself to do our work.
ANIMAL OR SHAPE SHIFTING ANIMAL, BIRD WITH RED EYES
In Animism (shamanic reality), the same applies as the Red Eyed humans (dead or living), it means the demonic dead human has gotten into a persons soul who and has stolen their dormant animal or avian shape shifting ability. To shape shift (in real terms, not sorcery puff and smoke terms of projection reality), the red eyed humans can steal ones dormant animal or avian soul and turn into and animal or bird.
Mostly you will see this reality in the darkest demonic humans of the drug shamanism circles, and it will be hidden very well by one who serves up the shamanic drugs to innocent people all over the world. As I said, its rare, the red eyed demonic dead humans but they are real, and its rare in the drug shamanic circles as well, but its out there.
There was one case in Peru, where 28 demonic shamans died in the forest, they were eradicated by the more angelic humans and completely destroyed. No physical evidence was there in the investigation but the darkness they carried effected so many humans who went there for their ayahuasca trips. The red eyed demons can manifest into the physical form in human terms, but in animism terms, this is in dreams and dreaming (energetic reality). Consult me in a session if this is occurring or has happened because its very dangerous.
HEALING OF RED EYED PEOPLE
There is none, These people have been dark for many millenniums and never chose to heal and have to steal your soul energy to stay alive. Sound like a book? Yes it does. There are no levels of shadow to lighter shadow, they are the most evil of all humans walking on the planet. Stay away from them if you can “see” or develop seeing in your future.
HEALING OF EVERYONE ELSE (Black, Shades of Black and Gray)
All healers who have woke up from the late 80s are now seasoned healers now, and can deal with these issue, even if they cannot “see” the black eyes of people. Energy healers help the best and strongest in shifting the persons yuck (shadow energy). A yoga or massage person is not going to see in general because the body is their jurisdiction, they can see the effects though and they are very positive to lighten up your issues your struggling with. The seers and more advanced empaths will generally see on a wider scale and field, but no where near real shamans. The fastest healing to clear black eyes is energy healing (pranic, reiki or cranio-sacral or their renamed things like quantum energy healing etc).
Spiritual disciplines such as yoga or meditation and especially sobriety (no pot, drugs, shamanic plants etc) are very transforming to clear our astral bodies out.0
INFORMATION
Modern Christian, Muslim, Jewish Religions, Gnostic, Paganism, Druidism, Sorcery, Shamanic, Magician, Voodoo, Hoodoo, even some Native Indigenous traditions all have people with red, black eyes to some varying degree. Philosophy & even main stream Theology over the past 2000 years have distorted or corrupted the origin teachings before the patriarch.
If you need a session if something is out of hand i work with sliding scale clients as my full time work and write me to schedule a session: ElderMountainRetreats@gmail.com.
Photo: Moon Witch by Psychara at DeviantArt; Heriberto Cogollo
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“Gluttony” better known today as Addiction. Addiction’s spread all the spectrum’s today like a pandemic, from the food we eat, to the pleasure we have or the sex appetite, cigarettes, pot, alcohol and medications, money, gambling, credit cards or exercise. Everything is an “addiction” when it causes us or others pain by its accumulation. Addiction in mental terms is “distraction” from the boring, the mundane or ordinary, having to fill every moment with music or noise, or busyness or behaviors that will harm the self or others which end up with loss. Its rarer that the gluttonous person wakes up to their addiction because many years have gone by in a state of repetitive denial or justification of the addiction. Healing requires suffering, it also requires the ordinary work, play, friendship and preoccupations that adds balance to our life. Today, the usual cure for an addiction is another addiction (substitute) until the person is ready to come to terms with admission and practicing letting go.
Have a healthy moon cycle and believe in your path! Also if you use this work in your personal moon circle- please ask permission from Elder Mountain Dreaming first. Phoenix is a master teacher of dreams, dreaming and dreamtime; folk healer and shaman. Assisting in emotional body, empath issues and soul body issues and those experiencing painful transitions. Any individual or family situations that require a pure shaman (non-drug non-plant). Exorcist, remover of spells, hexes and dark magic and shadow (demon) binder.
When most are young, these gifts are born out of wanting to be powerful, and just like war, opposing forces come to hunt. Developing our skills, whether its intuition or a kinesis abilities also requires ego destruction practices, anger and emotional trauma healed, mastering not taking things personal for many years, because it is our own karma which has given you bad experiences or drugs/pot/shamanic drugs, which ends up energetically being our own self destruction.
